MISSING YOU LIKE crazy!!!!~~

i miss you...missing you like crazy...wanna meet you as soon as possible!

but not sure got chance or not??..hmm..just wanna let you know that......

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

&

love you always=)

confusing

im confuse..i dont know whether it is a right choice for me..
in fact,you dont have any confidence,right?what`s more can i say?
maybe now still new for us..that`s why like this..but till when have to wait??
i really confusing..i dont know what should i do..im trying my best,but everytime failed.
maybe im not the best for you?or what??i can feel that you will feel ashame to be with me,thats why you mind if your friends knows..right?
its hard for me to tell you how i feel,but the feeling is not nice to have..hope you understand.
it doesnt important to let people know or hide it from them..just the way you act just like 'keeping me away' or 'hiding me'..
and i just need time to accept it cuz it still new for now.i dont know..just confuse..whether wanna carry on or let it go..cuz seems like your other friends are more important than me..and i dont want you to lose them just because of me..ok?

HavIng fUn witH you ALL=)

28.07.09 just over like that..really too fast it over..haiz..i still miss those times!!
cuz i really enjoyed the moments i spent with them!!really make me happy and relax..
not because of my birthday..is because of the fun we shared together..hehe=)
i love betty,b-yian and qi xiang so much!!!hehe=)thanks for the surprise party and the ballons and also the present!!actually im not really in the good mood that day..but you all make me smile back!haha..thanks..i never think that you all remember my birthday..no wonder you all said i sure will forgive you all for not going o night with me..hmm..now i understand la..hehe=)
To another gang~~
Cui Cui,wai kit,styler,davide,pui chin,victor,lee mee,jun how..hehe=)thanks for the 'funfair trip'..haha!!and also the surprise party and the doraemon!!=)i love it much!!i also never think that you all remember..cuz none of you wish me..lol
I enjoy the time we play the games..haha..taking photos..haiz..miss it so much!!
and special thanks to jimmy and david..came from ipoh to celebrate with me..haha!!thanks..=)at first really dont believe that you told me you`re at kampar now..sorry..still let me scolded you..haha!!oh ya!thanks to lewis too..hehe=)
after candle-blowing..went to ghany to have some makan and drinks..hmm..fun too..chat and laugh non-stop..hmm..aftter that went to dataran play the firework..hehe..nice taking photos too!then we cycling..chat..laugh..haha!!really fun hanging around with you all=) miss you all..muacks..
just thanks la..thanks so much!!!!i`ll remember you all forever..hehe=)and one of my birthday wish is..i hope you all choose drama class..hmm..but it seems dont come true oh..haih..pls consider it k?cui cui,styler,lee mee and pui chin..=)

I MISS YOU!!=)

I miss you..
Really miss you..
You make me think of you every second of my day..
Im happy when receiving your messages..and have been waiting for your call..
I miss you so much!!
The time we spent together still very fresh and playing actively in my mind..
hmm..when can we meet up again?like we used to met last time..
You`re controlling my mind right now!..i really thinking of you every seconds!!!!
I MISS YOU>>!!!

happy birthday~~~hehe..=)

Happy birthday liyana!!!haha..im 18 lo!!but still young..ahem..hehe~~~
To betty,b-yian and qi xiang..thanks for the surprise party..hehe..im so touch actually..just didnt drop my tears..haha!!and also the nice ballons and the present!!
thanks to Benjamin,susan,king kong,cui cui n bf and styler and davide..haha!thanks for 'the plan' to go fun fair just now..and it almost cancelled due to rainning..i know actually you all not really want to go d..but you all just pity me right?cuz i really feel wanna go..haha!!but im ok after hang out with you all..
im much better now=)
and thanks.. for all the wishes and calls ya..i love you all so much!!hehe~~
I miss my family and my ipoh friends..miss the surprise party of last year..haih..
this year couldnt celebrate with my family..i miss them much!but at least they still sent me wishes..hehe..no BBQ with nicole..fiona they all too..haih..
i feel so alone here..b-yian moved out adi..left me alone..just now after the surprise party,she and qi xiang came back to take back their study table to their new house..haih..im so sad that time~~what`s more can i say?i really sad..so lonely..
but overall ok la..still happy for today..actually quite moody de..but ok for now..
thats all la..wanna sleep d=)happy birthday to you,liyana.Move to a better life k?may all your dreams come true..and of cuz hope what u wished just now will come true..hehehe~~night!

regrEting for somethIng..

We didnt sleep for the one whole day..
after O NIGHT,styer,cui cui,davide and me went back ipoh..for clubbing..
yup..this is the first time i went without family member..hmm..
Joshua,tay and their gang also there..and we dance+drink all together..
i trust them..but something had happened and lucky cui cui they all saved me..THANKS GUYS..=)
i dont know why i will go there..haiz..they pull me to their table and i hardly to refuse..
they are my friends,i should trust them..but now i feel scare of them..
how can i so easily get around with them?dance with them like that..drink together..
now when i think of it..feel ashame of myself..
luckily cui cui and the gang was there..if not i dont know what will happen to me..
that night just over like that..and `it` still playing actively on my mind..i still cant forget about it..
feel sorry toward my parents and myself..im so sorry..

falSe hopE @ right noW

Its had been so long but till now it still stay in my heart,
Sometime i really feel unfair toward myself and also others,
Im tryna be strong as them,
but the strenght i have is not enough.
Why so hard for you?you`re not heartless,i knew it.
But its seems like nothing gonna change it again.
hard for me to make you understand.I know im wrong,im sorry.
the promises we had mede all useless..
not important at all anymore..
only left false hope..
hmm..

miSsing sometHiNg thaT not Sure

im missing something that im not sure what.
the feel is hard to understand,
and couldnt predict what will happen in the future.
really make me suffer..make me sad..
why i cANT get what i wish?
even i tried my very best.
its so unfair for me.
but what else can i say??
just no way to go..
cant even control my tears to drop..keep droping and drop and drop and drop..
i just want you back..please come back!!

I really hOPE THey caN mAke iT~~buT...

Im really sad..
i really hope they can make it..i want them to join me go together..
i so hard only can the ticket for them,,but suddenly they changed their mind..=(
really feel down after that..really feel wanna shout as loud as possible..to let everything out!!
maybe is because this few days really tired..stress..haiz..i cannot tahan with my life now..every night sleep at 3am or 4am..how i can handle it???i wanna go home!!!
but finally finished our HE presentation..hehe..not really good as i wish..but still ok..no need to fan about it anymore..hmm..tomorrow is MEM..i`ll be the host!!haha..need to dance also..but i`ll try my best..hehe~~
Sha po wanna move out d..whats more can i say?i really very sad..i dont want stay there without her..im sad whenever think about it..they only have few more months here only..tell me how i can live without them?they just like my sister and brother.hmm..but..as lewis and kelvin told me..i should be more independent..haiz..but can i??im really weak..not as strong as them..
i really need them now..but this few day not really closev with them..less talk..cuz i spend more time at cui cui`s house..doing the group assignments..
just fine..no one wil understand la..is ok..if she think she happy moving out then i got nothing to say..betty and i can handle it la..hopefully..
how i wish i really have one real doraemon!so that i can ask him to change back their mind to go O night with me~~hmm..

My BrO anD siS..hees=)

People always think that the eldest will bully the youngest..
hmm..but not me..hehe=)My bro and sis very noughty,they always bully me..huhh..
especially my sis,now she`s in form 2.She abit rough,and serious..but when her mood very good leh..will become qi xin la..haha!i love her so much!cuz she very care of me..hehe~~many agrees that she are more strong than me,she should be my eldest sis..haha..i admit im not strong as her,not smart than her too..and always so blur..always fall down..lol
not like her..she very active,strong,rough,independent..she very cute at sometime..hehe..i just love to hug her and kiss her chubby face!

My bro leh..quiet but talkative!haha..dont know how to describe him la..
he loves football..willing to get up at 4am just to watch the football match!qi xin!!erm..he very expert in computer..haiz..not like me..slow abit..hmm..
but in studies,my result better than him la!haha..frankly,im not really close with him like how im close with my sis..but he still loves to bully me=(

haha..dont know why suddenly blog about them..hmm..maybe too miss them d..feel wanna go home now,,rest..go for holiday..hmm..so stress now!!
just cant wait for my birthday present from both of them!haha..cuz every year sure i`ll get something special from them!hehe~~

p/s:-Mei,boy..i hope you read this blog..thats why i keep asking you both to on comp to read..haha!!you all no need to buy anything for me la..i just want cash..cuz my pocket gonna empty soon..hehe..tell mom n dad too k?haha!!miss you all..dad still angry with me??okla..i`ll go back this week la!!wei le ni men ok?keke..and join our family plan too..dont worry^.^ muackss..

WHAT`S wrong with mE???

Whats wrong with me?cant even know what exactly i want..
sigh~~
feel stress all the times..especially this few days..rushing for the assignments and presentations..hmm..sometime really hard to control my emotion,especially this few days lo..really moody and emo!all the things happen seems like againts me~~
i found that nobody understand me..haiz..make me geram,really really geram..
i miss my family..wanna go home and rest..really feel sick of my life now=(
i really need more time!!24 seems not enough for me,i know im asking for too much..but...hmm..
why they always like that?all the time need me to think more,do more,stress more..never think of my feelings..
sometime you see me smile and laugh doesnt mean im ok..actually im not ok at all!!!

I miss thEm muCh!!!!

Suddenly miss them so much! miss till wanna drop my tears..
none of them study in KTAR..only me here..sigh~~~
ya..is them,self-loving&co.---nic,tian,jie,lulu,fiona,sab,anne,kai ning,peipei,ker li,ziyi,wei min..
haiz..really miss them much..miss those times we had bbq,gathering,trips,baking muffin n cookies..swimming..tuitions..hmm..really fun right?
we are not in the same class..but i really feel much better hanging out with you all compare with my own classmate last time..i just dont know why..maybe is because you all accept whoever i am..but they dont..haha!but nvm..they`re not a good friend maybe..
with you all,i always find for..you all really nice to me..hehe=)always be with me..
but now all of us seperated ady..i just know most of you studying form6 while nic at taylor..hmm..
next time my house sure got gathering 1..dont worry..i`ll contact you all k?and prepare delicous foods for you all..haha!ker li n anne can eat more..haha..fiona sure enjoy it..lol~~
i miss you all..really miss you all..keep in touch ya!!

REAd iT YA..meaninGful..^.^

No one is something that less than nothing..
How can something be less than nothing?
If there were something that was less than nothing,
then nothing would not be nothing,it would be something,
eventhough it`s just a very little bit of something=)
understand?meaningful right??hehe^.^

speechless

Im speechless.I just trying to make you better anyway..but is ok if you continue like this..sigh~~~really speechless.
actually why i wanna care u so much?is because u`re really important to me,i still treat you as my friend!i know you very stress..cant handle it well..cant do well in exam..so i care and trying to help but get such a response..damn!next time i wont care anymore la..when you feel really need me only find me..hurt me so deep..you emo doesnt mean you can be like that..people are care about you,but you just dont appreciate..just fine!im speechless..i wont disturb you anymore..you wont feel fan la..ok?
i wont start sms you or ask for your condition anymore..you just dont need me,you never treat me like human,as your friend!!
really never never never never be a good people..useless 1..people just cant see it!

NOT HATE JUST DISLIKE=)

Feel so hard to communicate with you..whenever talk with you i just can feel your selfishness..i just dont know why..im sorry..but thats what i feel.
You can just take everything for granted..or treat everything as simple as you want..haiz..thats really bad.
You should just being alone..cuz you never enjoy being with us.
Really hard to understand you..since for the first day we get along,i already feel that we are on different channel..haha!
One thing i dont understand is..why you changed it?i dont think it need to be change!omg..what the.....!!now need to do double work!really "qi xin" lo you......
you are so selfish..never think of us..you are not our anybody,so dont expect us to just follow your head.
you tend to get to know everything that happens in the world..walao..even a tiny little thing you also can dig it..i know you`re........student,but i dont think you should care people`s things for too much!
hmmm..if you still like carry on to be like this,well..we got nothing to do..we dont care also..just,please,dont hurt us.haiz..always no time to do such an important thing,but always have time to face the computer to investigate people`s background..hahaha!!really funny lo..
but no worry..no more next time..this the last time,ok?thanks also..at least we know who are you..
kla..dont want talk to much..later lewis will comment my blog too long again..haha!!

At leasT we`ve triEd oUR best^.^

Not enough sleep!!!guess what time we sleep last night?err..should said how many hours we sleep for yesterday..hehe:)
My group and i were so rushed to complete our MC assignment..hmm..well..last minutes work!haha..our bad then..^.^
after class that day,cui cui,styler,pui chin straight away go cui cui`s house together with our laptop.But i gone back to my house cuz i have own stuff to do..hehe~~but i`ve done my part..just left to helping them!Alot of things we all prepare together..and of cause chat chat and chat also la..hehe~~~hmm...we doing the assignment by using webcam,msn..haha!!really fun!I`m so sorry for not be with you all for that day.I`m really busy..hehe~~~that night,i din dinner with them..i have to go koh`s house for another assignment..MEM..hmm..really busy..haha!My dearest housemate pack my dinner so that i can eat it at koh`s house..hehe~~delicous meal again!!yummy~~
from 8pm till about 12am spending my time at there..online+do assignment/translation+chat,play,laugh!+eat..haha..and guess what i do?i helped them swept their floor!my god..cannot tahan the dust..haha!!really clean after that,right?blekk:)
then..we went ghany yum cha..nick followed us too..as usually,i ate roti cheese again!!kaka..we chat about everything!gossiping too!hehe~~
i thought can go home to get some rest after that..but suddenly remind me about my another group member..hehe..i called them up..it seemed they need me..hehe~~so i have to go back to cui cui`s house..hmm..they all sent me till there then i started to help them up..hmm..Styler asked me to teman her go ghany wor..haha!!really funny..but wei le her..can lo..hahahahaha..~~~~we packed some food for cui cui and pui chin too!!hmm...
we do it whole night..lee mee came and join us too!but styler and me cannot tahan!fall asleep on the table..hehe~~that time around 5.30m..pity pui chin,cui cui and lee mee..i think three of them not sleeping for the whole night tim!
the next day,got class at 9am..cui cui and pui chin skip the class..only me,styler and lee mee attend..we so guai~~haha!
really feel very dizzy..feel like wanna faint like that..our whole body feel so weak!hmm..i went to coll by....walking with lewis and ccm..hehe~~but before that i teman them to go cherry house for the printing first..we are late for class..but lucky din get scold by ms diong..hmm..after clss..me and styler were so rushing to go cheery house to print our assignment and we need to go back to coll before 12pm.hehe..we ngam ngam reached winny liew`s place at 11.54am..hahaha!
now i can relax abit..cuz both done adi..left HE..and prepare for the presentation next week!walao..really busy..this weekend not going back also..lucky my housemates not going back too^.^
overall ok la..at least we tried our best..we are in the team what^.^

is your heart^.^

They said friend is hard to find..Nope,i donT think so.
Friend are easy to find,but true friend are hard to get.
Love,they said is a very sweet times that can make you fly..yup!for a couple of weeks but later on it will become completely complicated.
they said studies will make you suffer..ya,at these moment..but will soon we appreciate it much!
Many feel that friend or outsiders are more important than family..think wisely,whose the one going to help you when you get into trouble?they or family??lets say u get H1N1..will the family left you as how a friend did when you getting so badly situation?
hmm..whatever it is..our life is very complicated.
Sometime,really hard to struggle and manage it.Even to understand it is more fuckin hard.
Sure have a way for us to solve every single problem we have,but just we are too blind to see it.
Humans are always love somebody that don`t appreciate them and will hate those who are appreciate them.What else to sAY?I have no right to jugde..because i`m not animal..i`m human too!!
People will definetely criticize others..but they just never see their reflection from the mirror that they`re worst???
Before talk about others please bear in mind that yoou`re not perfect as god.
Before you did something,please think 100 times whether it will hurt yourself and others?
just stay happy and be rational.
every problem has the solution,just see whether we have brain to think or not.
Don`t ever complain what you don`t have,but have to thanks what you have!!
Sometime we tend to be selfish..always trying to get whatever thing we want..including loves.
LOVE are very subjective.We cant get it by forcing.It should comes from youe heart..sincerely.
So in other word..we love somebody doesnt mean we have to show it..we can just keep it inside our small heart but yet large room.We cant force a person to love us,but we can show to them that we are worth to be loved.
I love you silently because it can bring happiness to me^.^
don`t have to care anything..as long no harm to others.

What a bAd Day!!!!damn~~~

Today,09.07.09..is a VERY bad day for me~~~
i met with accident just now..i still feel very scary and abit trauma,cuz this is the first time it happens in my life that i just couldn`t believe it..haha!
We(styler-driving,cui cui and me)are going back home from old town after we bought the pin no. The car hit styler`s car and it bang from the side of the back door..hmm..i was the passenger behind..yup..injured my left hand..but everyones of them seemed like don`t trust me when i told them i get hurt..but..not so serious la..hehe~~it was totally shocked me and my heartbeating began faster and faster..i never experience it before.hmm..i was panic..and so styler and cui cui..haha!!i called tay and joshua to come to the location and they reached there after 5 mins!!haha..thanks to them..and sorry to tay cuz just because of my call he have to skip his class..hmm..
yuan lai that guy who hit styler`s car is kelvin`s friend..hehe..what a small world huh?but i really worried just now..tay and kelvin almost wanna fight..scare me..both also my friend..don`t know wanna help who..kaka!!then we settled it at police station..it took our precious times!!and we are rushing to go home to complete our MC homeworks!haha..
of cause i got inform my housemates..and betty strainght called me and asked about my condition..hehe~~thanks so much!!muackss..
hmm..late for MC class..and luckily ms winny didn`t call our name to answer the tutorial questions..haha..cuz we really no time to prepare it..^.^
4pm lo!!!!i was rushing to go out from the class cuz my both coursemate already go out(we promised to walk together to canteen)..i keep calling his name but he couldn`t hear me..=( so i ran to catch up with him..but unfortunately......hmm..i fell down from the stairs..and hit my injured left hand again!!i can still feel the pain..and i swear to god..it really really really pain..haha!!pain until i dropped my tears in front of them!!!walao...not only my coursemates..some of the students i don`t know are also enjoying to see me struggling with the pain!!haiz..even now,,my hand still feel painful..but nobody trust..cuz it seemed nothing on the surface..hmm..except some of them who really care me lo..especially my dearest housemates..all of them really so care about me..and betty keep asking about my condition and asked me to take extra cares..thanks thanks thanks..!!love you all..and i`ll try won`t go here and there without you all lo k?and i will walk for the short distances instead of go by cars...ok?i will listen to your advices k?^.^
and really thanks for your cares..betty,byian and qi xiang..haha!!
i called my mom just now..she get panic also..hehe~~but im nothing what..god still protecting me..thanks!the pain..gonna ok soon la..hmm..they so bad don`t trust that i really get hurt!huhh!!!hate them..haha..
but thanks to ccm..lee mee..pui chin..cui cui..styler..and eveyones of you who trying to 'save' me just now..i know you all had a good laugh also..but trust me..it wasn`t a joke!!it totally painful!!!!!i don`t know la..but as for me..really pain till will drop my tears..hehe~~haiz..tomorrow sure got people laugh at me..damn!! and withm my hand wrapping..hmm..going utar tim!!haahaa..damn bad luck oh..
last but not least..really thanks to all of you who helped me just now...for the accident..thanks to tay and joshua..to kelvin also..helped alot as 'middle person'..haha..thanks to you all..hmm..but one more thing make me sad is..my star star senget d..haiz..i hope ccm can give me a new one!haha!!

appreciatons..^.^

''Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and what's wrong. Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late.appreciations are really important!!''

and same when it comes to relationship.It may be nothing at the beginning,but slowly it will be something simple..after days and days,it would be something that hard to understand and you just can`t effort to lose it.and of cause later on it would be really really precious that would eventually conquer your life.

yeah of cause sometimes what we want nothing concern with what`s we get,and we just never learn to appreciate it.After anything happened,then only we will feel regretted and there are no way to go.

life??really complicated!and the word ''appreciations'' is easy to say but fuckin hard to do.yeah..that`s human..me too..i always complain this and that and sometime really goes too much..

just try to appreciate the people that are nice to you and treat you as human being..because once you lose them..it`s really need times to get them back.I admit,i regretted too.but i know nothing gonna change it,so i choose to move forward.^.^

so to those who just don`t know to appreciate people around you,please learn!because you will get very hurt once you lose them.Trust me,i`ve experienced it before..until now,the wound haven`t totally recover yet..that`s why i know how hard it is!!

The Visit~~and mix up topic..

My family came just now..well..they visit me..hehe~~mommy bought so many yogurt for me!!haha..know earlier just now no need to buy la..haiz..actually my sis wanna stay here tonight..haiz..but daddy not allow..hmm..
leave me alone now again..sobzz..
hmm..after this wanna continue study..sien~~but if don`t study..will die de la..hmm..
just now daddy already alot of speech la..ask me to study study and study hard..hmm..huhh..PR???really hard ler..i don`t know what im studying about..=( stupid la me!!!!
then uncle sam called..asked how my studies..whether i enjoy anot..hmm..the answer i have to give him of cause enjoy la..if not??
just fine!!it`s still new for me..maybe=)
hmm..this few days we keep sms-ing le..but i don`t know should feel happy or not..no idea at all..really feel fan about the assignments and exam next week!!!oh my god!!!!1please keep me strong ya..
so how??of cuz happy la..we both sms back..start to contact each other again..but i feel that you wanna hide it from your friend,you seems like afraid to let them know that we contact again..well..i don`t know..maybe just my feeling gone wrongly..haha!!but anyway..i have feeling..that`s for very sure^.^
enough is enough..don`t want to think too much..study 1st!!!thats the most important!!为了我父母，我一定要努力！！哈哈..im so guai leh..~~~kekeke..("blow-ing water")
that`s all la..wanna study again..

bOrinG! BoRing! bORIng!! n StuDy! stuDy! StUDY!!

BORING! BORING! BORING!
Hmmm...wake up at 9 something..still lying down on the bed..and sms-ing with.......hehe~~~
Nothing interesting thing to do..hmm..i washed my clothes..tidy up my messy room..hees=)online..hmm..and waiting for my breakfast+lunch=brunch!!..haha!!
afer had my brunch with them---ccm,koh and kelvin again..heehee..,we went to tesco..we bought quite alot of things le..me as well..ice-cream la..yogurt..honey star....hmm..really getting fatter..haha!monday must walk to college le..=)die ler..no more money to use..~~~~=( very lazy to open the book!!!haiz...but i have to..i promise myself to stay here to study..hmm..must do it lo liyana!!!haha..

STUDY ! STUDY! AND STUDY K?
HMM..time to study la..after updating the blog..i wanna start to study..hehe..but now feel wanna sleep tim..haha!!don`t want to think too much ady la..
but overall..not really boring like hell la..hehe..ok ok lo..
still very miss my dear hsemates..haiz..2mr only can see them..~~oh gosh!!now only i realized my hair really like 傻婆..hahaha!!as i see my mirror..get a shock lo..haha..but anyway..i walked the whole tesco with this 傻婆头..haha..but nevermind de..乱乱才美，自然点嘛.....hahaha!!!!agree anot ccm?koh?and kelvin?为了你们什么都可以的。。哈哈哈。。
好了。。我要开始读书咯。。

YUP!you`re right..i`m HAPPY today.^.^

Yup..i`m very happy today!!hehe~~
Actually i just came back from yum cha with ccm,lewis,kelvin and kelvin 2..haha!so fun leh..at least i don`t feel boring at home alone..huhh!B-yian,qi xiang and betty left me at home alone..so sad~~
whoa..we really laughed alot!!nope..they laugh at me..huhh!!but it was fun la..haha..yuan lai they got remember me de..and luckily they didn`t go back hometown this weekend..if not i`ll get bored like hell!!(izit wei le me leh???)hahahaha......
hmm..die ler..i still very fresh now..haha..just now `warm up` ady..keke!i just don`t know oh..today feel very happy..cheerful..hmm..i SMS with my Ex just now..just a normal chat..but still feel happy..hehe~~but i don`t expect for anything..im sure.
well..just a friend^.^im so happy to chat with all of them lo..really can make me forget about everything..actually i really worried about the test next week..hmm..i don`t know how am i going to seat for the papers..damn!
but i`ll study hard for very sure!!
quite late ady ler..i have to sleep la..tomorrow going to have lunch with them!haha..after that i`ve decided to start to make revision..it would be better if all of us study together..but make sure we really study la..haha!!
so the conclusion is......i am happy...haha!!right now..hmm..if everyday can happy like this mai good lo..no need to fan too much!i`m okay la..really recovered ady..
muackss!!i love all of you lo.....thanks for making me happy..
but..i feel that im getting fatter and fatter lo..almost every night yum cha at ghany..haha..that kelvin called me fatty ady..haiz..so bad la him..hate him lo..haha..
so starting next week onward..if 9am de class..i`ll walk to college..don`t want to go by car ady..hehe..but not because of kelvin call me fat la..is myself feel it too..
always so late only go to bed..pimple also getting more..hAIZ..really stress..!!!so..i have to manage it well lo..ok liyana?hmm..guai..hehe~~
sleep la!!good night!muacks!!

abOut thE pResentatiOn anD discuSsioN=)

Hehe..finally..no more group discussion at night..hmm..happy~~but miss those moment..hehe..frankly..i do not enjoy much at the beginning..well,that time all of us still in the process knowing each other..hmm..
But after a few days..a few discussion..we all getting closer and closer..happy to meet them!
i did enjoy the moment we shared our ideas(but i didn`t give much idea..i know..soory~~)..do all the preparation together..and of cuz the time we yum cha together..hehe..really fun and nice moment!!
really feel sorry to all my group member----ccm,kelvin,koh,niki and timmy..i felt that i didn`t done my part well..hmm..always busy answering call and sms during the discussion..hehe..so sorry lo..to all my dear..
but honestly..im happy to have you all as my group member..hehe~~i can see all of you really work very hard and you all have alot of great idaes..(not like me)haiz..
actually i also don`t know what im suppose to do..hmm..
PR??really hard leh..haiz..or maybe bcuz i didn`t study?haha..but no matter how..it`s my parents decision..i have to respect them..and do well in my studies..
about presentation yesterday..hmm..great..feel happy after that..and at least one of the stress gone,..hehe=)ms diong said our group not bad..doing very well..and my friends told me that ms diong keep praising my group`s work..hehe..feel proud leh..~~~
hmm..i loves the ballons-blowing..the road-making,the star-making..haha..really fun!and of cuz!photos-taking!!haha..really enjoy it..especially koh..i know he really enjoy taking photos..haha!esp when take photo with me..hor????hahahaha..great friend he was.hmm..i loves the stars..too bad i don`t have the photos..haiz..
overall..really happy la..
and feel satisfied..hmm..
sorry to my friends...my hsemates..cuz have to cancel the `dates` with you all just bcuz of the discussion..hehe..WEI LE MY GROUP,I HAVE TO SACRIFICES DE!!!!haha..
don`t know next time still got chance to be in the same group ant leh..haiz..really fun working with them lo..so..i really hope to be in the same group with them again!!hehe~~
err..just thanks to you all..hmm..and sorry if i`ve done any wrong..and always late..not pay much attention..hehe~~~i love you all..muackss!!!!

hmm..i Got NOThing To DO righT noW=(

Haiz..weekend is good..and bad.sometime.haha~~suddenly miss home~~my family~~my doggies~~and miss to play with them!haha..and of cuz i miss `you`..=)i miss my `duaghter`-you ning..!!!!!!!hehe..miss to play with her..muacks!

>>>my daughter,you ning=)

Today at school was so quiet lo..even my class..was quiet too..and moreover IT class mah..damn boring~~pui chin didn`t go for the class..so only left me,cui cui and styler..hehe~
hmm..really boring like hell..ccm and the group skipped the class too..haha..except kelvin..but end up he ponteng go out also..hehe~~and he asked me to help him to sign..can...no problem...he owe me roti cheese!hahaha..
really funny when ms tan finding her name list,and she said that kelvin took it away..lol~~=)but actually the name list was on her table,under her file..haha!

i didn`t pay much attention during the class..cui cui and styler keep laughing and `blow water` there..haha!and they make fun with me by cheating me sound made by the totoise..haha..damn stupid am i~~ermm..but fun laa..haha..i also keep sms-ing with tay,kelvin,shirren,and sha po..haha..so naughty..i know that..~~no more next time,i promise..keke..~~
next week exam ler..just now grammar test..i don`t know de ar..so scare i cannot answer just now..but luckily i can do it..haha!

haizz..b-yian,betty and qi xiang gone back hometown ady..so miss them err..~~~actually b-yian said she not going back de..i`m so rushing to come home to catch up with her..but......i feel wanna cry when read her note:liyana,sunday go ipoh cancel ady!!i got assig. to do.i will back on sunday..take care!!oh my god..i`m damn sad now~~~~hmm..
but is okla..i`ve decided not to go back this weekend..cuz i got exam next week..if i go back sure cannot study ler..hmm..but is oklo..my dad coming tomorrow..so still okay=)

what else to say leh?hmmmmmm.....very boring lo..!

haih..all of them gone back ady~~really hate it!hope i can use these free times to concentrate studying laa..after the exam i can relax abit la..haha!and i got trip to UTAR..don`t know when..but i was totally excited!hehe..got chance to get along with them!hmm~~~~hopefully..

aiya..feel hungry tim!wanna go find food to eat la!haha..!!!!!

we should be proud as malaysian..not as malay,chinese or indian=)

We should be proud to be a malaysian,not feel proud as malay,chinese or indian.I get very frustrated and sad when people ask me:Are you a malay?...or people criticize or look at different eyes whether he or she are malay or chinese or indian.Sorry to says that,actually i don`t feel that malaysian are peaceful,or lucky to have such a multiple racial,culture and whatsoever..i sometime do feel that the racial and the skin colour make the malaysian all divided..and that`s really bad.

But if i not mistaken,my dad..and some of the uncles told me that..the malaysian divided only for now..last time,which is a many many many years ago..all of them are really peace and do not have any different sight or thinking about what race are you.I still remember a friend of my dad told me that,he feel sad and really miss the time last time he was sitting and chatting at chinese restaurant having tea with indian and even a malay!(that was last last last time anyway,for now..do not have any chance to have such a nice moment like that)

why we have to stay away from each other?why the the people so-called `malaysian`really concern and particular with the racial?and one point that i really do not understand at all is...why do malay haven`t `merdeka` yet?well..i said it because..i feel that..malays do not have freedom..do not have own choices to moving on..for example..why do malays must be a muslim?or why must a chinese guy or women have to convert to muslim if she or he married malay?eeeuuuuwwwww...really complicated..really hard to understand why..haha!i`m not saying that malay or muslim are bad..no!just..i feel that `they` shouldn`t force people to follow their understandings or believes..agree?

with a sigh..~~i just manage to do my part as i know my family members are fighting for the justise..not for lee`s family..but is for all the malayssssiiiiaaaannnn..hahaha!!well..it`s hard..if it`s easy..this `matter` would not become so complicated like this..and just because of my malay name..i got into trouble and.....become so hard to go on.it`s totally unfair to me,to my family and to those who agreed with this matter.

SUDDENLY FEEL MISS YOU SO MUCH!

I MISS YOU..YOU JUST NEVER KNOW IT..SUDDENLY MOODY FOR THIS FEW DAYS..AND I REALLY NEED YOU AT THIS MOMENT..I DARE NOT TO HOPE AND WISH AGAIN..IT`S ENOUGH JUST TO BE MY LISTENER..JUST ENOUGH LEND ME YOUR SHOUDERS TO CRY..JUST ENOUGH FOR ME TO HUG YOU EVEN A MINUTE..I WANT YOU..BUT I DON`T KNOW HOW..WHAT SHOULD I DO?SOMETIME I`M OK..BUT NOT AT SOMETIME TOO~~I JUST DON`T KNOW WHAT TO DO..i don`t expect more than a friend right now..
I MISS YOU ALWAYS..

I LOVE YOU...

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE YOU..
I DON`T K NOW WHY..NO REASON TO LOVE YOU..BUT I LOVE YOU..REALLY LOVE YOU..
I LOVE YOU..LOVE YOU.. MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY~~~
LOVE YOU LOVE YOU...

what??i love who??hmm.....
i love you lo..haha~~
(all the readers..)
my mood suddenly ok ma..thats why abit sot..styler asked whather i taken my medicine..haha!god bless me n family...

To my dear,i love you!

ThankS to thEm!!=)

Today`s mood not really that good also.Still struggle with the mix up feelings..i feel so bad,feel sorry to myself and people around me..
I skipped my IT class taday..i don`t feel to go to class as i lose all the interest and mood!I know i`m not suppose to be like this,but...i just can`t manage it nicely..well...my bad~~
ermm..but..i feel much better at night.Had a yummy dinner prepared by b-yian with my sisters and brother..hmm~~make me all nice inside..haha!!Really damn full tonight!and b-yain really a good chef!haa..after dinner,went to pasar malam..but rushing buying things..cuz i have to meet my group members at 8.30pm!to prepare for the presentation tomorrow..hehe~~
again after that i become moody again..cuz i have to walk alone to koh`s house..they still wanna shopping at pasar malam..so i don`t feel nice if just because of me they have to go home so early..and one more thing make me not happy is styler and cui cui not ready to go together..they still having their dinner..(but of cuz can`t blame them,cuz the restaurant full of customers..hehe)even though i`m scare to walk alone..but..what to do?no choice..but.....luckily met jun hao half the way..haha..so i just walk with him lo..~~
thanks to cui cui and styler..willing to listen to my problem..thanks to styler,gave me the tissue paper..haha~~thanks cui cui to make me laugh back!
and also..kelvin,koh,niki..willing to listen to me..(even though just awhile)haha..but frankly..feel much better after that..all of them make me happy back!hmm..and `the secret` between me and kelvin make me `fresh`..hahaha!!!omg~~~happy to chat with koh too..so funny and make me forget all the sadness things..
i enjoyed the moments we preparing for the presentation..blow the ballon..stick the yellow pieces of papers..hmm..we talked alot and laughed all the time!i don`t know next time we still have chance to spend time together or not..well,after the presentation over..i think we really less to meet and hang out yum cha except at school..hmm..i really enjoy being with them!!they can make me forget about every sad stories of my life..
Really thanks to them la..haha!i feel ok now..glad to know them!

NO MOod for toDAY!!!!

I DON`T KNOW WHY,THE WHOLE DAY I DON`T REALLY GOOD IN MOOD.NOPE,NOT MY PERIOD..haha..JUST.......DON`T KNOW.
ESPECIALY AT NIGHT..WHEN I ATTENDED THE DISCUSSION,THE FEELING WAS TOTALLY WEIRD..REALLY FEEL UNHAPPY..I JUST KEEP QUIET AND PRESSING MY PHONE..MAYBE SOME OF THEM REALISED IT..I DON`T KNOW,WELL..CUZ NORMALLY I WILL BE QUITE NOISY..HAHA..
BUT NOT FOR TONIGHT.
I JUST FEEL WANNA CRY..SO SUFFER..SHOULD I IGNORE THAT KIND OF FEELING?
I ALSO DON`T KNOW WHY..NOT SURE THE REASON..MY TEARS JUST DROP DOWN WITHOUT MY ORDER.
IN FACT,IM CRYING NOW.
SHOULD I IGNORE THIS KIND OF FEELING?I FEEL SO BAD CUZ I NEGLECTED MY GANG FOR THESE FEW DAYS..I DO NOT TALK MUCH WITH THEM.ESPECIALLY PUI CHIN..SORRY~~
PLEASE..I NEED SOME TIME TO UNDERSTAND WHAT KIND OF FEELING IM HAVING NOW..AND REALLY SORRY TO ALL THE PEOPLE AROUND ME..
I JUST FEEL BETTER SPENDING MY TIME WITH B-YIAN.BETTY AND QI XIANG..MAYBE BECAUSE WE REALLY SO CLOSE,AND I CAN FEEL THEIR CARE TOWARD ME.
TONIGHT I SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY..CUZ I MET MY OLD FRIENDS.
BUT NOT AT ALL!I NOT REALLY HAPPY.WHY?WHY?WHY?
MY HEART SO PAIN NOW..MY TEARS CONTUNUE TO DROP..NO ONE COULD LEND THEIR SHOULDER TO ME..
JUST FINE!!I NEED SOME TIMES........