.

I'm back,yes!

2011-05-01T01:54:00.001+08:00

I couldn’t hide my feeling or any kind of thought toward you. I was wondering that I’m still carrying meaning to you. I’m upset. After every single hurtful word that you’ve thrown me, yet, I chose to stand up.

The days to meeting you is like hell. I wasn’t patient enough to wait. To tell you everything, to release every F things that drive me mad. I’m waiting.

I need to be strong, I know.

Yea after so long, I don’t want it to be so hard-to-figured some kind of kind but, its just happened, just like that. I need you to be a place where I could tell everything, even crap.

getting closer to myself.

2011-02-22T20:38:00.003+08:00

Give up on everything but not in you.

But why i still get this kind of return.

I'm not even asking for the very very perfect one.

but at least you just have to know to do your part.

im speechless.Okay! my fault.

Its always mine.

sorry.

Looking forward for the day:)

2011-02-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Gong xi Gong xi!

Oh..but i'm having fever now:( Please be strong Liyana!

But yeah! Looking forward for the day to come!

hehe~ for the trip!

I'm happy!

LOL

After sooOO long ;)

2011-02-01T22:43:00.002+08:00

Yeshhhh! Been quiet for sucha long period. heeee. Not that busy,just lazy! :p

The reason why i'm blogging now is because i'm happy! hahaaa:)

oh i can't wait to wear 'em!!! and i'm collecting more and moreee!

Money for meals should cut down! add on for personal expanses! Yup yup=D

oh i can't wait for the day to see you,and my lui luis:) aww..i miss 'em so much! like so madly!

but seriously i still feel 'em close to my heart! well,12 more days! yuhoo~

Dear called,just.I'm so glad to listen to his sweet voice.oh not sweet at all,erm,just nice to me:)

hahaha!

oh i'm happy i'm happy! heheeeee:) Gonna start preparing the special naughty gift for the valentine.hehehehe=D

bye.

MASCORPONE．

2011-01-23T20:45:00.003+08:00

Ｍy Next Mission : MASCORPONE :)

I wanna learn to make it ! So desperately !

breaktime:)

2011-01-23T20:40:00.001+08:00

Hmm. Had spent few days of my break at his hometown:) Not that really fun but still fun heehee.

The great thing ever, I’d make myself close with his family and I really treasure it much!

At first, I was worried that I might give them a trouble but the moment aunty step into the room and start to chit chat with me, I was like…hmm:)

Not gonna meet him for about 2 weeks? And I’m sure I gonna miss him so much since almost every day I spend my times with him, either at college and also at home. I don’t like the feel without him beside me:( Yea, I know I got to be strong and make myself biasa. Well, after graduate:( Omg. Anyway, I’m gonna back my home, bake some cookies and try out lotsa fooooods! Hehe:)

Bye.

2011-01-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

End:) The final.

The hard work had put on to, just hope to get a smile for it.

After the sleepless nights, and we don’t even get to sleep for 48 hours! Believe that?

And I told them I got no way to sleep for the rest of my life.LOL oh at least, I made them laugh:)

You know what? My snowy and Berry even better,gooood than the H. such a brainless creature. But is ok,let’s see what returns you will get. Stupid asshole!

Ok get back to the happy hour!

The BBQ and steamboat,oh really great! (credit to whom marinated the chicken wings and the lamb! Hahahaha)

Sucha awesome night! The makan time, judi time, metoo time,beer time,pillow talk time.Really really best moment ever! Oh I think I’m gonna miss you guys:(

Hmm.friend? No,I don’t need alooot of friends,to have THEM now,that’s enough,at least I know their true heart.

Ck want me to forget about it,about what she’d done.I said, that’s impossible.I want her to know that,she’s too much! I won’t scare of her anymore! Oh god. Ugly B. ( ohya,that’s me,not her heeee)

Is okay, one day they’ll know. Yes, the day will come. Of cause la, if everyone are good people,then how can you learn to grow up,right?

Hey not to say that I’m really that good, but at least I won’t harm others. If I wanna go,I’ll just get myself off,I won’t stop others to go in! F. Please remember whatever you had done,ok ms L? Just wait and see.

Ok. Enough with the ms.L.

Should be cherish my days with the people really treasure me! Muacks.

The moment I treasure.

2010-12-28T13:22:00.010+08:00

Went to KL last weekend? I mean, the week before Christmas. Hehe.

Fully organized/planned by Timmy and they went one day before Dear&I since we have to attend to the crappie badminton class!

Stayed at Sun Inn Hotel and luckily there’s an empty for us! Thanks to my babes - Pui, Issac and Timmy for planned so hard to get the cake everything for the Hew CK. Lol Appreciate it much! Thank yous ! Went to the Sunway Pyramid for shopping, movie & makan and of cuz Sunway Lagoon for the fun!

Oh. I’m grateful to have them with me. Thanks for the unlimited supports, helps, loves, concerns and cares from yous for me! The moments we’d been spent together, and the future we’re going to spend, will be kept here! The ‘pillow talk’ we had, made us closer every now and then!

Hmm. Well. Pictures paint thousand words :)

Five of us with Ms Thuba:)

I love you dear!

Fun experience:)

The great dinner we ever had:)

Happy Birthday Dear:)

Five of us:)

happy birthday:)

2010-12-18T00:18:00.001+08:00

It’s your day! Happy birthday to you :)

And I’m super excited now!

Ohhhhh..for tomorrow:)

I love you dear!

would you believe me?

2010-12-12T18:05:00.002+08:00

Hmm.

Would you believe me if I tell you that I love you so much?

No, you won’t.

But actually,

I’d prefer it if you won’t. Why?

So that I can spend the rest of my life proving to you how much I do.

Yes, it would be hurt, but is okay for me because it’s worth for doing so.

NO.I was wrong!

2010-12-12T04:13:00.001+08:00

Oh.I thought that he's really good to me.

NO~ I was wrong!

he made me cried.

Please make it real:)

2010-12-12T02:16:00.003+08:00

hello.

what a happy day!

had the half boiled eggs with babe for our brunch:)

and,went Tesco for the bread and nuggets,

the foods from pasar malam for our dinner!

sundae cone and fries for the supper!

*that's the reason why i'm getting fat! omg.

Haha.

He's so good to me today!

even when i'm moody him he'll still talk to me:) LOL

he said he'll give me the moon as my x'mas gift:)

he told me about the lil piggy love story:)

he listened to me when i stop him for playing the games.

oh hell. I'm happy!

Looking forward for the trip with them,next week!

and i really hope all of them really on!

and the x'mas trip with babe,

sadly,have to cancel:(

I'm going for the family gathering which i don't really want to go,

since i really don't want to see several people face.

so,sigh.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.Gonna sleep! good night:)

I've seen.

2010-12-11T14:22:00.001+08:00

No more fear. Just worries.

But I’m happy after talked to YOU.

We’re not blind, not brainless. So you can’t cheat us.

But just because aupgh is ‘blind’, so you make a fool of gyh.

Oh God, what type of people is that?

How could you do that to gyh?

And now, I really hope to tell gyh.

Sometime, is okay to give up :)

To prevent yourself for being hurt, even more.

Yes, give up not always negative.

So, ~~give in~~ GIVE UP please.

One.

2010-12-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

Tired. Yes, tired to care all the things:) As predicted.

I wish to, we all wish to, but there’s somehow full of crap.

Hoping that everything is just fine, not a bunch of lies, please.

I’m very disappointed of Him. He said I can trust Him. Yes, I trusted. But my heart broke into pieces at the end.

And I’m trying to believe in Him as well. But what he done and said meant nothing but just lies and shits.

But at least, when the world turns upside down. Still there’s angels will be there. When the Satan asked you to end everything, there are angels that stop you for being dumb ass.

The childish actions and the craps happening, the source is the Satan. I don’t trust anyone now, just myself. Trust myself that I can differentiate the Satan and the angles. I got no power, I know. I am wrong to talk too much. But for the sake of the Angels. I know I got to do something.

Well. He is no longer in my heart. No more respect should be given to Him.

Anyhow, I should be thankful for given this chance to learn, to grow up. I believe the Satan will really gone once the angels conquer the truth.

:)

2010-11-27T21:00:00.002+08:00

Who cares?

2010-11-25T01:58:00.002+08:00

I'm clapping for you! Very well done!:) You're sucha great actress in a way to gain people's attentions,loves and protections:) But how you manage it ah? by just dropping your tears? Opps! someone is reading this.Cry la cry! talk la talk! hate me la hate! But who cares?I don't. But i wanna see how far you can go:) Good luck!

And you. Never change. always act like you're so great in everything,but actually you're not at all:) how sad huh? you're trying to 'help' others but please,help yourself first ok?:) You're acting like you know everything but actually you don't even know a single thing!

You! I hope you'll know one day who's really treasure you:) Now everything seems so blind and yeah, you'll see the truth one day! and, you're just too blind and stupid for not appreciate the real thing that you really worth for.

You!!! I'm freaking pissed off now! I'm not talking to the wall ok?So, you don't expect me to talk with you unless you realized that you're in fault:)

You:) you'll understand someday, the reason why. But i love you as my true friend:)

My another you:) Stay strong and i always love you! Let's see how far they can go!:)

Well,i really don't care of your words to me:) But seriously,if you cross over my line,hahahaha! You'll regret because....i already knew something about you:):) hehehehe!

Its time:)

2010-11-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

Mm..i think it is the time for me to accept the truth,even though its an ugly truth:) That's what i should do for him because that's the only way/the reason he smile:) Oh never mind:) I don't really that hurt actually.Hees:) And i'm sure there'll be a next time and hoping to end that:) IF really really needed,indeed.

Grrrrrrr!

2010-11-19T15:33:00.001+08:00

Shit day!

2010-11-19T15:16:00.003+08:00

是，我有错！你也有！我已经跟你好好的，你还是不爽我，我有什么办法？我不想鸟你了，也不想每一次都是我开口跟你讲话先！我很坏的！一点也不好！！

死讨厌！只看到别人的错，自己的呢？！

Thank YOU for the tests(:

2010-11-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

So long never update my blog:( And i don't have any mood to update any too! Well.Its so many things happened around me/on me.But i still thank God for sending me few,just few,not many,angels:) Omg.What a wonderful day huh?Or what a tough challenges you gave me?Please make me strong to face it,God.

I'm hurt:(

The feeling for myself.

2010-11-10T00:33:00.003+08:00

Today is the bad day for me.I feel like screaming.The moment Karthik tried to call the number,and told me that it had been switched off.I know,there's no hope anymore.I can't drop my tears in front of them! I still need to go for prw class.My heart is so pain.I'm blank,helpless.But still i have keep myself calm and force myself to give them a smile.

Back home,i still have to cook dinner for them.I still need to laugh with them as usual.But thank all of them for giving me much concerns and cares:) Yea,i know its just a cheap one,but still its very valuable for me.Its so meaningful for me!!

I'm tired.Had forced myself to smile for the whole day.Its enough! At the end of the day,i'm feel so good after the 'crying session'.Thanks for the hug Dear,thanks for just letting me cry on your shoulder and wet your shirt,thanks for not even ask me to stop crying,and,really thanks for the song-''Just the way you are'':) Thank you to all of you!=D

To my babi:)

2010-11-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

The only YOU! I love YOU! =D

Thank you for always be there for me.

Thank you for giving me lesson when i did something wrong.

Thank you for giving me chance to know you and myself better.

Thank you for your scoldings,concern and loves.

I'm sorry for the mistakes i've done toward you.

One thing that wouldn't change is,

my love toward you wouldn't fade.

I promise,i'll still love you eventh you don't love me anymore.

whee=D

I'm free for you finally:)

2010-11-04T19:11:00.005+08:00

Okay,alright.The reason why my blog is s00oooO dead is because i'm busy! and..i'm lazy.Lol I'm now nom nom cheese tart and the taste was like omg! Love it love it ♥

I'm lacking of sleeeps! aloootsa sleeeps and rests..:( And i feel i don't spend much time with him:( well,i hope my group manage to publish our Queer successfully! whee.It sucha good experience and happy to learn all these incredible things=D I'm the editor,hehe:) Chee meng,the art director,Issac,the copywriter and YY,the professional photographer:)

Last few night,we went to G2:) Nom KFC and Pizza for free! Yuhoo! Actually not really that 'free' la! haha=D But it was fun! the place was like,our own house:) with laptopie on,air-cond on, romantic lights on,wow! it sucha nice place to relax or,good place to save our house's electric?Haha..joking ya! Hmm.he's getting a new phone! Yeah:) Not for me,but it would be mine eventually.Hahaha=D Last night he helped me to search for my stupid textbook:) I forgot that i've left it in Pui's car.LOL

Hmm yea! I'm waiting for the money money money! and i'm planning for trip with him ♥ hehe! The previous trip with them was soooo fun! and fun!=D Hmm.I'm just being too random,cuz i just type whatever thing come up in mind:)

I'm in Ipoh now:) Going back Kampar on Saturday,reason?For finishing the assignments:( And i'm excited to bake cakes. whee..^^ okay! Bye!

Latest issues:)

2010-10-13T16:51:00.004+08:00

Had been stop updating since the last day of the break.I guess:) Hmm.Well,back to hectic life,again! This sem,busy for producing a magazine:) My team members- Ccm,issac and yy:)

Hmm.If it wasn't because of the feeling of sad and dissapointed. I think i'll still neglecting my blog. I just wanna tell you and desperately want you to know that i'm happy when i managed to help you.I care for you as my everything. Please don't reject my helps for you.Yes! my heart is so pain! why? why you never see my effort to show you that you're my everything? i can understand why you don't like it but please, put away your ego! that's guys right?always think that they're the best and tend to be so true in everything. This is the fact that forever true. But thank to you too! You make me realized that its not necessarily give your hands to others. " hao ren mei hao bao '' right?:) so,thank you! Whatever it is, i've done my part, and i still very happy because at least i've tried my best to show that i'm care for you! I don't ask for any return,honestly..just..a little bit of appreciation. That's all what i need.

check-list:)

2010-09-23T14:49:00.004+08:00

Shirts,pants,undergarments,shampoo,conditioner, hair cares,facial cleanser,lotion,baby powder,deodorant,yoko-yoko,bio-oil,recipies,muffins,pudding bread,the voucher,chicken essence,money money money=),IC yeah,I always forget you.And,sandal.

LOL

2010-09-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

Another 3 more days to go ya. Hmm..Happy plus excited plus lazy plus sad plus scare plus worry plus curious = what a crap feeling?! Ok well, can’t wait to see him and excited for the trip with them. I’m so down today. Oh hell, I guess no one can understand it. Wanna COL ! Ohya, one more thing, people always use the LOL in the wrong way ya, realized that? HaHa. LOL means laugh out loud. Some people thought that it means like, something that ends a sentence. ’ I wanna go eat now lo..’ but they use lol – I wanna go eat now lol so it was like ‘I wanna go eat now laugh out loud.’ Izit?0.o Wtf?

Hmm. Okay, end about LOL. Well, sometimes I would feel that it’s just wasting of time by explaining something. No matter how we explain about something, people might still think that you’re wrong because in their mind, you’re wrong! So, what for? Explaining for something that cannot be solved? Yea, if you’re not in wrong, but people keep saying that you’re wrong, you keep quiet, you’re a dumb, you see. But other way round, if you’re trying to explain something, but you’re just explaining to a cow, it works? LOL So, save your time, save your energy, better! gtg.Bye..

So Soooooon.

2010-09-19T22:42:00.006+08:00

OMG.6 more days? what? 7 more? ohhh..whatever! Its so freakin soon:) Looking forward for the honeymoon and the trip with them!

Finally ♥

2010-09-18T18:07:00.003+08:00

Finally,settled! Haha.Thank you Darling. I’m so happy to get your answer for my question.Lol Omg.I can’t wait to see you ! And thank you for the supports ya. Hmm..i’ll stay strong and face the problem. Yea, seriously, I do feel scare and worry about it. But pray to God that HE will lead me and guild me. I miss you! ♥

Don't ever force me.

2010-09-18T01:56:00.003+08:00

Fuck.I just get my new sem timetable..Hmm.Why got that subject one?Don't force me to take it ah i tell you! I don't even know a single thing about it.Since small never learn it don't tell me i can master it now huh?Please God.help me..I believe in YOU,but i don't believe in THEIR TEACHING,THEIR RELIGION.Please..

No idea.

2010-09-17T14:40:00.002+08:00

What is going wrong?I have no idea.But there's things happening that is really so wrong.Don't give any fuck reason as it doesn't make any sense,ok?I'm fed up with it,fed up with you.The feel of giving up is so strong.I just don't like to make myself hurt and pain.I'm not dumb.But at the same time i just don't want to be selfish,can anyone tell me what should i do?My mind is blank.Totally out of ideas.My heart bleeding non-stop.My brain is empty.My cells is dying. Heart-beating unsteadily -.- Omg.So fucking annoying!

Perhaps?

2010-09-16T17:04:00.003+08:00

Perhaps we shall take a break?Maybe,to have a kitkat?Hmm.It's selfish to do something without informing,but some times its just need the courage to do it.But the fact,I don't have it any.LoL Shall think & need more times=D

Nicole and HaoHao going UK soon.Oh hao going later?tomorrow?While Nicole going on 29th.Hmm.Hope can see you before you go=) Still remember the first time i met you=D The very first time we hang out,the dark dark secret we used to share,the supports we provide for each other=D,the laughter we shared.Hmm.everything is in my head here! and will Forever stay in my heart=D All the best to you both! Take good care.And perhaps?We shall meet there one day?HaHa..I wanna go there too.For a trip,maybe?Haha..still remember that you promised to be my doctor ya!=D better keep your word uh.

Miss you!

Sssss.

2010-09-15T20:33:00.004+08:00

It must've been so hard on you

I'm sorry for all I put you through

I'm sorry for the helping hand I didn't lend

I wish I'd been a better one for you

trust me.

Never intended to hurt you

I regret it,i do.

What i did,i really regret.

Only a word-Sorry.

ByeBye.

2010-09-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

I'll see you on next Sunday! and I won't disturb you for now!

Bye!

Every moment of my life.

2010-09-13T14:52:00.004+08:00

Every time I leave to head out on the road

I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold

No matter where I go wrong

you'll be there to turn it into right

I will love you every moment of my life

When I'm on an airplane, flyin' cross the sky

I know you're on a trainride, stations passin' by

No matter what the signs say

However in my mind you are by my side

I will love you every moment of my life

everyone misses something

And I know time changes everything

All the love that you have to give

you should give just as lost as you're holding that someone

I'd travel cross the great lakes to get to where you are

and even if forever wouldn't be too far

so baby when you asked me

to be the leading lady by your side

I promised to love you every moment of my life =D

I wish to sing this to you on our special day:)

Something new=D

2010-09-13T02:14:00.008+08:00

Seriously, only now i know about this cute little cartoon=D POCOYO! Thanks sis
♥

Today.Just today.Not tmr or yesterday.Is today=D

2010-09-13T01:34:00.017+08:00

Hmm.i thought i can just eat 2 slices of cake for today.Just like yesterday.But opps,failed.Because,mom and i baked pudding bread with extra ingredients.Haha.I can't stop eating.Gosh!And mom fried rice and she forced me to eat.At first i refuse but then she said,okay,i know what i cook is not nice one..i was like =.= okay,i'll eat.

I called babi just now afternoon?asked him what is ren ming bi?after he answered i said bye.Oh hell,guess what he said?he said i purposely call him one actually the main reason is not to ask question but is to hear his voice wor.Ahem..perasan!I'm not,okay!HaHa. And he promised to buy me a pair of shoe?right?Converse?Thanks darling!

I missed the gathering for nic and hao again=( how sad.Due to several crap reasons.Sigh..but hopefully the 27th plan on.I called babi just now.Oh hell,i don't know why i would suddenly have this feeling.Hmm.I'm so afraid of losing him and thanks for listened to me=D Omg,i'm so excited for the trips ya.I need confirmation now,but actually still need to wait for about 2-3-4 weeks?=( And i'm listing down what i need now ya.

A pair of shoes.
A pair of sandal which i can wear to coll and shops.
A back pack.
Necklace for the matchings.
Earrings.
Small bag for putting those stuff =.=
Present for sis & Bro.
Clothes from the net! I need more and more clothes seriously=D
Jeans.

What else ya?Can't think anymore yet.Wanna sleep d.Bye.Miss you babi,you better reload your phone!

Babiku.

2010-09-11T15:23:00.003+08:00

Oh.my blog won't be dead as i'll update it everyday or any time!Reason?oh hell.Cuz i'm damn free! 8po asking me whether wanna plan a trip or not.Genting?Lost world?Beach party ya?Haha!Hmm.i sure want! But still can't due of several reasons! Haih.How sad.Hari ini kami guna BM!Babi text saya,dia kata dia sangat hebat!Wahaha:) sleep at 3am?chat with 8po,sis and online the whole night.Hmm.thinking what can i do today ya?I've in love in online shopping recently.Die le == Hmm.I'm busy looking for information of Cameron=) Can't wait for it.Well,its actually someone's plan but then i feel that it is a nice plan for me and babi too ya!So ON! Hehehe^^

The plan=D

2010-09-11T00:48:00.003+08:00

The plan surely ON.Just waiting for the money=D Lol Omg.I can't wait for it! I'm too free,and spam everyone's wall=D Byee.Night!

Sem break-ing.

2010-09-11T00:30:00.009+08:00

Kinda boring sem break.I've no plan with the gang also=( Hmm.but i did enjoys baking cakes with mom and sis and doing those crazy crazy things with the little monkey:) Lol Darling had spent rm400 on his new girlfriend today:(

Ohya! He and she texting again.He said hey,i've a good news for you.She replied,ohya?just tell. I won the game. =.= I miss you babi. Babi?no babi here.Go to farm find. =.= again.

Haha,Some photos to share:) Bye=p

The marble cake:)

The yummy chocolate cake=D

The special pudding bread(=

My sis & i :)

He and She texting.

2010-09-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

He and she is texting.

He: 喂，快点过来给我抱你，肥婆。

She: You better hug me tight when we meet!

He: Okay,so better you become thinner than now.

She: Oh why? If I’m fat,you don’t want lar?

She is still waiting for he to reply and she actually very sleepy and wanna sleep to dream of he already. He is too slow to reply she msg!

A Sudden Feels.

2010-09-09T19:52:00.003+08:00

I saw someone. That someone looks like YOU. Make me remember about YOU. We had stop contacting since, the day we end? Or? Hmm. I wonder why I will have this feeling. But,a big question mark on my head. Asking why we should stop contacting? I can’t really remember for the reason we end. Is, I tried to stable back and tried with you, but still there’s no way. But can we just be friend? Can you just give me a chance and stop misunderstanding me or get me any wrong?I mean,yeah..Open your heart.For the sake’s of friendship. I just don’t know why I will try to search you on facebook even blog. Can I nugde you on MSN? Will you give me any response? I don’t mean anything, but I felt so sad for the unsolvable problems and unsave-able friendship! Aww,I think I’m gonna try to nugde you later?or sooner? Lol

Miss you,so badly.

2010-09-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

I’ve counted! Is about 14-15 days more to go! Omg,I miss you so much,like so badly. Can’t wait to share with you stories and plan for trips.Let you try my bakings too! I miss you. And, Haha..the so-called surprise I gave you just now:) So,no worries anymore.Tata!

My Boy:)

2010-09-07T13:41:00.006+08:00

He’s my boy. The only one I truly love. He’s kind, understanding, loving and always concern about me. I simply couldn’t live without him. Yea, he quite serious and don’t really like to join my activities such yum cha or just hanging out with the gang unless there’s a reason for him to do so.

Hmm..Sometime I wonder why. I just want him to be with me all the times, but why he chose to be at home doing his own stuff rather than joining me.Lol But I’ll respect whatever he wants as I just want to see him happy.

Well, there’s some time that make me pissed off too. Erm..Sometime, when I trying to do something on people. I mean like, posting people bad on facebook? Or telling others that she’s crap or he’s shit. He’ll stop me! And will give me 2-3 boring lecture which my ears would be painful. Lol I will feel like, what the hell? I’m your girlfriend. Why don’t you just support me? Huh! He’ll still stop me. At that time, I’ll feel that he don’t love me and don’t even understand my feeling.

But well, at the end of the day, I realize that whatever he does is for my own good. He just doesn’t want me to get into trouble and just don’t do something that are wrong. Hmm..Sometime we’ll do the wrong thing, but we just never realize that. But it doesn’t mean other people won’t realize, when they’re telling you that what you do is wrong, your mind will set,Fuck off! It’s my stuff! If you don’t support me, just go fuck yourself. Right? Hmm.WE seldom will think that, Yes, you’re right, I shouldn’t do that, thanks for telling me. Hahaha=)

I’m not telling you guys that my babe is the best, or showing off to people just like ‘someone’ always does. I’m just wanna show him some appreciation I’m giving him ♥

A best friend of mine, Styler, she has a great boy too. Her boy, will always throw her some advices and stop her to do the wrong things. Yea, sometime, she may be stubborn. Lol But yet, her boy’ll advice her patiently. Another best buddy, Pui Pui, her boy, totally great and..GREAT! haha..She’s so lucky to have him to guide her all the times. Since she quite naughty, Haha..Her boy led her well and same! Will stop her to do something nonsense.

So, a good boyfriend doesn’t mean have to support whatever you do all the times, without knowing that you do the right thing or wrong thing. If it is a right thing to do, he won’t stop but encourage you to do more, of cuz if it is a wrong thing, he will scold you and try his best to stop you from doing the wrong.

Hmm..So, ask yourself. Does your boyfriend truly love you? Care about you and concern you? Or he’ll just support you in whatever you do just to give you a temporary happiness? If your boy knows that you’re trying to cheat on exam, will he stop you? If your boy knows that you’re trying to steal friend’s money, will he stop you? If your boy knows that you’re trying to create a story just to break others’ relationship, will he stop you? If your boy knows that you’re trying to say lies to others, will he ever stop you? If he knows that you’re trying to do the wrong stuff, will he stop and advice you?

I'm proud to say that,My boy will=) Styler’s and Pui pui’s boy will too=) So how about Yours?? If He truly love YOU,HE’ll give you lesson instead of support you without knowing the fact and FUCK OTHER PEOPLE ! BITCH !

Acting innocent.

2010-09-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

If you never cross my line and do something that may make me fire,i won't even care and notice about you.Who are you?Not even my rubbish.The problem is,you done it!You make up stories to break the relationship between my friend,you make the friend misunderstood me,now,when i already know the true face you have,am i wrong to warning you to stop interfere in my stuff? Its my own stuff!!

Now you're telling the whole world that i scolded you?Do you think people will trust you after you done the wrong thing?Ohya,have lar.3 or 4?or not more than 10?If people got brain one sure know who's in fault who's in right kay?So,i don't give any fuck care,cuz you know why?80% over 100% people already knows the truth.And just see ya,even someone that we don't know also dislike you.Tadaaaa..and your dark secret in my hand.But don't worry,i won't tell anyone because others knows it more than i do.Hahahaha:)

So stop pretending that you're innocent.I'm totally sick of it.We all sick of you!! You can get supports,but i tell you now,i have supporters too:) You can act pity in front of someone,because want or don't want,he has support you,you see.I may be too much,yea..not everyone dare to do like i'm doing now,but if you've rights to fight for your own good,i won't be dumb to keep quiet.Hey,unless i was in the wrong lar,then i won't be shout at you like hell.Now the problem is,i have the rights to fight for myself.I won't be stupid to let you conquer my friend's mind.Saying what?Liyana is bad.Liyana say you bla bla bla.Oh hell,what are you trying to do?Are you jealous of me?huh?Or you feel that you have not enough enemies?OMG.And the fuckin main point is,I won't kacau you if you can stop interfere in my stuff.I won't even look at your shit face lar,as your face looks like elephant's asshole:) Well,you can say me like that,so i can too right! So Fuck yourself off Ms crap! Thank you..

So good feel !

2010-09-04T23:22:00.002+08:00

Hahaha:) even though it sounds so bad.But,I felt happy and thanks for the support given. Yeah, I get all the supports from them all. Well,I’m not doing any wrong, is her ! Shit fuck her ! omg.Her face is like, indescribable cuz too bitch d. And her attitude was like crap, worst than crap. Her face thick as cement. Still dare to treat other people as her driver wor, ahh, she just don’t know that so-called ‘driver’ actually hate her like hell! Omg.Feel like slapping her! Hey bitch, I wish you read this post and realize that millions of people hating you like shit. So better go buy mirror for yourself,~~bitch.~~ Is ms B.

heal the pains.

2010-08-18T02:41:00.001+08:00

Had so much fun just now-the BBQ. It’s a suddenly decision that timmy and I made. We rushed to tesco yesterday and I marinade the chicken wings and the lamb by timmy at night:) went to tesco again just now with darling to find tembikai but unfortunately don’t have. Went to oldtown with styler to find it and get some other things that are needed. Even though the rain falling non stop but our plan still on.And thanks god we still can manage it successfully. Special thanks to darling and styler for fetching and sending to here and there:) Pui pui,davide,Helen,timmy,issac and hong weng for helping. Aww! I’ve started to miss you guys=p Lol enjoyed the moments we had spent together ya. The photo-taking session. Makan session and being crazy with issac:) Hahahaha. The moment of drinking ice lemon tea with dear pui pui is fun!! Lol and how sweet we are. The cleaning session is fun too! Play the water sambil cleaning.Wow. and and and the time we shower styler’s car.hehe.Hmmm..it remind me the time I had a BBQ with tian tian mimi and YOU=p Miss ya.

I’m so happy today.Even though feels so tired and my throat started to pain.Hmm.My darling already not feeling well. *get well soon sayangku. Lol Overall,it’s just fuuuuuuunnnn!! And looking forward to some other planning.But final coming, we need to study study study! Hmm.

Well,at least it can make me carefree.I don’t even remember every single thing that upset me.But deep inside my small and weak heart asking ‘why second problem always come find me once I settled the first problem?’ ‘why there’s no chance for me to rest,even awhile?’ and why?you never trust me?am I so bad in your eyes?hmm.So many whys.You know what?i’m tired.I don’t feel to fight with you because its useless.You already set in your mind that I’m bad,so I’ll forever bad! But fine.Liyana,you should be happy today! Ya! I’m happy:) Guys,I love you all.Thanks for brighten up my life.Darling,thanks for loving me.I LOVE YOU.

the little fact that you got to accept.

2010-08-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

Things that happening is all with a reason. Sometime I wonder why my parents want me to come here for study. If that time I reject the suggestion, then I think I won’t have him in my life. And I won’t get the happiness with them all. I won’t have chance to learn to overcome some problem. I won’t learn to stand up whenever the ball hits me down and I won’t learn how to deal with different people, situations and feelings. Thanks to God for given me this golden opportunity and chances.

Yes, in our life, there is always give and take. You won’t be perfect and not everything you want, you can get it. I tried my best to show them that I can, but unfortunately they simply can’t see it, I tried to forget about the past, but unfortunately the memories reluctant to go away. I tried to learn to love them and trust them that they had changed, but unfortunately they never change at all.

But one thing is, I really appreciate the things that I have now. Yea, I never deny that I always take things for granted. Always make a lot of complain about this and that. Asking for so many whys. But at the end of the day. I still feel very grateful and thankful to God, by saying, AT LEAST I’M BETTER THAN THEM. I still have my family that very supportive. I still have my babe that always loves me. I still have girlfriends that willing to spend their time with me. I still have many chances to prove that I’m not rubbish. I still have many ways to have a better life.

I started to love myself even more. I won’t care what they’ll think. Because want or don’t want. The facts, you got to accept!

G.

2010-08-12T15:00:00.002+08:00

So long never update my blog. Yea, busy and lazy=p well, the event had end. Now only need to pay extra attention to the coming final. I’m worry about Law! It’s so hard for me. Lol Hmm. Anyway,I’ll still try my very best=)

Went to de garden with dar, styler and davide. Had fun and took some pictures for our assignment. Photos, will be upload soon.

Last night had a great time with 3 of them as I mentioned just now plus fei poh and monica. As usual, we yum cha and chat chat chat for the whole night. I’m happy. Feel sooo free like a bird. Haha. I’m finding a room to rent. Feel wanna move out from here since I feel like a stranger. But the other way of thinking, why should we move? This house we found leh. Sigh..let’s see how.

Last night after the dataran session, had an argument with him. I was so tired! And I prefer to keep quiet or else I’ll not be able to control myself. Going back this weekend. My bro as well. Ohya,he want me to buy him something,but so sorry.I’m pk now. I think I should puasa also. Save some moneyJ Lol

I’m so tired! Tired like hell!!!! I don’t wanna argue anymore!! Leave me alone. I need some time to decide what should I do and take as my last decision=(

Happy of the comments given regarding of our event. I know we had done a very good job. Thanks ms pushpha for the compliments, guidelines, supports and cares.

Listing Failed.

2010-08-03T16:11:00.002+08:00

Failed to be a good,

-daughter for my dad and mom
-sister for fifah and boy.
-girlfriend for him.
-best friend for her.
-friend for them.
-student for lecturers.
-listener for those who needs my ears.
-helper for those who needs my hands.
-communicator.
-normal person.

I'm just failed! failed! failed! Failed to be everything!!!!
no matter how i tried,how i wished,how i do.The result is just the same,i'm suck!
If i can stop the time to run forward.How i wish not to come here.So that dad won't be like this,so that i won't have any relationship with him,so that i won't because of the relationship,lose friends.Dad don't have to waste money for me.Mom don't have to worry so much.Bro and sis don't have to miss me and hope for me to go back.And i,do not have to suffer like now.OMG.Stop crying okay! That's useless.

changed.

2010-08-03T15:45:00.002+08:00

Everything is starts to change.Some change to better one,but some are not at all.Yea,quite busy with the event now,so not really have time to think about it:) today is very bad and emo day for me.Last night slept with an angry mode.And today woke up with angry too,since phone out of credit,no way to contact chee kok and he was busy til couldn't reply my messages! well,i don't think he'll know if i'm dying since the phone will not by his side most of the time.Is either no credit or no battery or in silence mode.
During the exhibition just now,i saw him.Someone that are really close to me-used to be.The most hurtful part is,i don't even have the courage to say hi to him,but the rest of them,had a great hi with him,even with photos.Who's to blame?Ya,i seems,we all seems carefree about it,but there's a big thorn in my small heart.I don't feel comfortable when we act like a stranger when meet each other.Be in the same roof,but don't even say a word to each other.
no one know that today i'm so emo.Even you.I smile,doesn't mean i'm okay.Alot of stuff is playing in my mind!!!!! so stop with your fuck actions.

累了：（

2010-07-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

我们又吵了。又弄到你不开心了。
可是我觉得这次我没有错!我真的很生气耶。
你那里可以酱小器？哼！
How annoying!ohmygod.FML!!! still have many things pending:( Law assignment,photo essay,this and that.Alotttttttt of crapsssssss to do!

Copied pasted:)

2010-07-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

CURRENTS
current mood – happy
current music – need you now
current hair style – let go with short fringe
current crush – don't have since i already have Lol
current thing I ought to be doing - kill them!
current windows open - Blog, msn ,facebook
current desktop picture – empty
current book – Public speaking text book. .

LOOK AT ME
what colour is your hair – Very dark brown
current piercings - ears.
have any tattoos - Nope
straight hair or curly – Straight
how tall are you – 159 cm.counted as 160cm la wey!

CURRENTLY WEARING
top – Black shirt
pants – short
shoes – slipper
necklaces – Nope
rings – Yea,couple ring:).
bracelets – Yes,wore his as well.

THE LAST’S
last person you hung out with – Err,chee kok. .
last thing you said out loud -Diu lo :)
last thing someone said to you –You're funny:)
last person you called – Styler chai.
last person that rang you – Nick.
last time you cried –Last night.

THE DID’S
did you ever get into a fist fight in school - No.
did you ever run away from home - Never,think before but won't.
did you ever want to be a doctor - When i was a kid.
did you ever do something you regret – Yes.

THE DO’S
believe in God – yeah
Know how to swim - sure
do you like roller coasters – yeah
do you own a bike - no,and i don't want too.
do you think you’d make a good mum – will.

THE HAVE’S
have you ever been on a plane - yes,in the dream:)
have you ever asked someone out – for sure !.
have you ever been to the ocean – Yes
have you ever gone fishing - yes,its fun and fun!
have you ever taken drugs – No,don't want to try it at all!

THE WHAT’S
what are you listening to – Chee kok mumbling at me.
what is the temperature outside - hot like hell
what was the last restaurant you ate at – kam seng with chee kok,keong daddy and hong weng gor.
what was the last thing you bought – watch!
what was the last thing you had to drink – orange juice.
what are you watching on tv - just the advertisment:)

THE WHO’S
who was the last person to be kind - my mom
who talked to you on the phone - friend of mine.
who is your current celebrity crush – Justin?
who was the last person you took picture of – chee kok .
who was the last person you said i love you to – chee kok.

CRYING SECTION
ever really cried your heart out – yes,these few days
ever cried yourself to sleep – Yes
ever cried on your friend’s shoulder - yes .
ever cried over the opposite sex - yes.
do you cry when you get an injury – Most of the time!hees..
do certain songs make you cry – sometimes
last film that made you cry - Lion king,considered?

HAPPY SECTION
what can make you happy – Family gathered together .
do you wish you were happier - yes,very yes.
can music make you happy - sure.

LOVE SECTION
how many times have you had your heart broken -twice?
has anyone ever loved you so much that they’d die for you – no such stupid person in real life.Only movies.
has anyone ever said ‘i love you’ to you – ya,just.

Living alone is somehow fun.

2010-07-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

Oh yea yea..i'm all alone.Well..everyone dump me.Guess you feel pretty nice right now cz no one gonna disturb you and annoy you huh?Congratulation ya! Oh.so now,i should cry out loud?or do anything that i want to?Like no one care right?yes.Imma do whatever i want now.YES.IM SELFISH.No one could understand me.So do I:)

IMY.

2010-07-09T21:16:00.005+08:00

Who can understand the feels of mine now?Who's the someone?Seriously i never think that this incident would appear in my life. Can i face it with Gods' strength?hope so.Why so hard for you to forgive the past?and treat me as how i should be treated.Someday, i felt left out. Yet,do not have the courage to stand up raise up the hands.Because the result seem to be the same all the time never change.I'm useless among the rest?Maybe.I miss the home.With happiness surround us,with laughter accompany us.Can i still have the chance?No matter i tried,why still same?It's destiny?or I'm dumb?How come others can have it?I can't?I used to think that they're crap,yes,that's the fact that they're crap.But after see the reflection from own mirror.The loser is myself.How sad ya. If only i can shout out loud now,i just wanted to shout to all of you,my dearest,I miss you and love you all:) How can i live without you all? and how i wish to be right in front of u and we were chat about something that totally could not be understand by outsiders.Great right?

a kind of people.

2010-06-25T23:25:00.003+08:00

I hardly describe the feeling of mine now.It wasn't so serious right?Why need to drop the tears?Lol Is like,the feeling of,frustrated.maybe.Hmm..feeling of sad?disappointing?or..hurt?Hmm.I don't know! How come have this kind of people?Sigh.i also wondering@@ Omg.don't you know that everyone hate you now?and i tried to be nice with and forgave you,but why still never change?you still mad right?still could not let go the ego you have,am i right?Fuck you!!!!Well,i'm sure you guys readers want to know who's that guy i'm talking about.I really want to spell out his name.Hmm..but will i get sued??Haha..
anyway,the person i'm talking about is a male.ktar student.my class.always acts smart but he wasn't.always try to give joke,but it wasn't funny at all.ugly.dark skin colour.and..the one who has position in the class:)
let's guess:)

Recently

2010-06-24T22:05:00.002+08:00

Busy.For the campaign,Public speaking especially,with the....sigh.I feel so tired.This few days i get lack of sleep.Always went metoo with styler chai.Hahaha.Anyway,i got DSLR with me ady:) Yeah..so i'll start to capture around,not only for the assignment.Lol but for my own properties as well.

hmm..what else?ohya,my cooking skill! Walaoweh..improved alot! Who said i'm stupid huh?cheh..most of the times,they finished the cooks and praised me=p Lol Lol Lol not showing off kay,just that,feel so happy.From nothing to something:)

Hmm..

I don't like my law lecturer.Both of them.Law subject is quite interesting but.ohno.I or we don't think that the lecturers is good.But god,please,i don't want to resit!So,please make me understand easily when i'm doing revision=D Winny liew is a good lecturer,too good,too pro that sometimes make us stress.The pressure she gave,OMG..Ms pushpa is always that kind and good! Sir,aiyo..no need to say,is tooooo kind! that sometime make me feel that attending his class is just for relax or,wasting time.Lol

With him,well,trying to solve everything.I don't wanna think for too much first.One thing that i can be sure is,I love him much.Hehe.

Styler,happy and enjoyed metoo with her this few night.Went westlake for chit chat,release stress together,gossiping.^^ the feeling is so damn nice.You're the only one and suitable friend i've found here=p yeah..you're really SH de.Haha.Anyway,add oil together for the PS crap.Lol * and i know you're tired.

To them.Thanks for understanding me.I've decided to go home this weekend! yeah.

Hmm..what else ya?i think that all the things i wanna list.And it may be a crap for someone or two,but not for some others.Lol *no,you won't understand because you're crap! Still hating you!!,yes you!*

Totally in ♥ with penang:)

2010-06-15T20:22:00.013+08:00

Here are just some of the photos we took:) Lol i'm kinda lazy to type..But the trip was so fun and enjoyable:)

This is for you.

2010-06-03T22:18:00.002+08:00

It wasn't nice when we talk,someone will interrupt you or the other person you're talking to is not paying attention or doesn't understand what you're trying to say.Hmm.it was very hurtful for you and me to be in this situation.Like now,staying in the same roof,but still need to acts like cats and dogs.I'm hurt.
I've told you,i'm going to make a decision for us both.And i'm sure the decision that i'm going to make is the decision that i'll never regret.So,please,let us try to be cool for these days and be a sweet couple kay?Do you understand me?I'll try to change to a better one,and hope you'll too.I love you.That's the only word i can say to you.

Pen without ink.

2010-06-02T18:32:00.002+08:00

When something aren't turn to something that you want,for sure you'll down like hell.My mind is so busy thinking for the best way ever.My heart feels so pain when i imagine how my life would be without all these.The problem is,i could never have the feeling to let go.But at the same time,feel some kind of tired,like,totally exhausted.No matter how i try,why the things still in the same situation?Why i just can't be calm whenever difficulties find me?I was like,nothing.Ever.I failed.And now,the decision that i'm going to make,hopefully will not drive me to regret=)So,please rest my mind for others,i just want to focus on these crap feelings and look forward with a better way.Yes,i know i can=)

when the ball hits you down.

2010-06-01T17:31:00.002+08:00

I was so surprise that you know about it.I was so touch.Thank you,at least you make me feel that you're still care and concern about me.I understand,and i don't want to give you so much trouble.The promises i've made,hopefully will turn true=p
I love you and i just wanna shout to the world that,I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

U again.

2010-05-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,i did feel bad for treating you like this.In fact,everyone of us now=p But,well..this is what you 'asking' for.You're so thick face..hello,you know people don't like you,please la,get away from us.Still have face trying to be good with us,or her.I never see your this type of living thing not until i met you.Haha..You..ugly creature.Yes..is You! Good if know that we dislike you for so much..so what are you waiting for?Fuck off la.Give people so much trouble..need people's help,but still need people to wait you.Tak tahu malu punya orang!!

finally♥

2010-05-15T00:03:00.002+08:00

Finally,its over:)yea..i'm totally exhausted.Hmm..what i feel?Err..happy but a little bit dissapointed:( didn't get any prize but yet i know they've tried their very best.
I'm group 18's GF.My partner,Kelvin.Had tried our best to lead the group.Yea..for the first and second day,they were so quiet and totally no response to all my questions.Lol But later on,okay,and some of them even dare to 'bully' me.Haha..i love them!!
Actually,i'm never want it to end like this:( maybe my expectation too high.Haha..had problems with my partner,some members not giving me cooperation,difficulties dealing with all the committees.For this whole week,i'm totally lack of rest.Even less time to spend wit my beloved.Sorry^^ In fact,a week before O'week starts,we,Committees,OAs and GFs were busy preparing for freshies.So,i really feel down because some of them never appreciate what we had done for them.Hmm,anyway,its over.And im finally free and back to my normal life:) Haha..
Thanks to those who willing to listen when i was complaining about this and that,esp my hsemates,Wai keong,who complaint that i love to complain.Hahaha..Hong weng,lee jing and of cuz my both darling,Ck and Styler chai.Thanks yea Styler for lending me your ears when i'm down.Thanks for all the supports:) Happy birthday to you! I appreciate you so much! Love you^^
Errr..photos..i'll upload soon^^

Don't wanna close my eyes.

2010-04-30T20:02:00.003+08:00

I was told by him about it.And i was like,omg.Hmm.I don't want it to be happen and each time i close my eyes,I'll worry about it.Yet,i do not have other way to help.Just to pray to God,may You give him a way and lead us as well:) 3 more days gonna back to kampar.Happy?or sad?Hmm.the new hse waiting for us to clean as well.Lol
Miss you.See you soon!

♥♥

2010-04-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

My heart had felt so empty without you! ♥

Is it too late to apologize?

2010-04-24T15:00:00.003+08:00

I'm speechless since then.Sigh.What i want,what i hope,what i wish,i just can't get it.Why?
tired to be like this.Because i really don't like the feels.I know,is cause from me.Sorry.
Maybe there are a better and nicer one for you.As i know,i'm nothing good for you.Damn myself.I'm sorry:(
Take care yea,see you another week more.Gonna miss you like crazy.Yet,this break goona be a good chance for me to calm down myself.Sorry.

I hate friday the most.

2010-04-23T22:07:00.006+08:00

I know i know.Its sucha silly thinking but oh hell,i really hate Friday the most.I mean,starts to hate it.
Reasons:
-No classes on the next day.
-Leaving this hell place.
-Leaving them.
-Meet my family in the weekend.
-Cannot online.
-Argue with him.
-Gonna miss him.
-No nice foods to eat.
-Fan about brownie.
ohhhhh hell.I didn't mean anything la.I just don't wish to argue with you.Why Friday?Can't we be nice on this day?Straight few weeks of Fridays we had these ridiculous arguments.SERIOUSLY.NO JOKES!Sien ahh.>.< Yet,sorry,really sorry.I know it was my fault again.Every time is me,me,and me.Sorry.
Love You The Most,anyhow.

Saddie boxes.

2010-04-22T13:01:00.002+08:00

Seriously,lifeless people just don't know how to think.Oh haha,sure la,lifeless ma:) Lol
seriously they love to gossip abt people stuff la.act kind la.find others' fault la.aiyo,why don't you all go to mirror your fucking face?
*yes yes.im talking abt you and you and you,if it wasnt because of me,you can know each other meh??I know you'll read my blog one.Don't pretend,kay?Seriously your face is like bullcrap.wanna close it up.I know,you'll start to find your bloody handphone and dial up her number.''hey hey.I just read her blog ah'' ''who??'' ''neh..her lo,liyana ah'' ''ohh..any new info ah?'' ''aiyo,she so obvious talking abt us la.'' ''aiya..is like that one de la.Don't care la.what we say now is useless one..bla bla bla..'' and alot of chinese chinese words come out.Lol

hmm.last night,the plan to club had been canceled due to several reasons.But still went ipoh to watch mv.We were so damn lucky,bought the ticket,get the front row sits but at the end found the empty row at the second last row.Huhu:) so nice sits:) went for makan and back kampar:) all the way,chat laugh tease.
hmm.fun:) and i gtg.wanna find something to eat:) Byeeeeee..maooooooooo maooooo maoooooo..haha!

F.

2010-04-20T15:09:00.002+08:00

The line is fuckin slow.Those fuckers still not doing their job.But i don't give any fuck care,cuz i'm moving out from this fuckin place:) Lol still have 2 more fuckin papers and both is so damn fuckin hard.Tomorrow have plans,but not really in the mood since the papers still on.
Hey you,don't try to fuck with me.Please fuck off!I know you'll read my blog often and 8 abt MY stuff.You think i don't fuckin know??If you not happy with me,then why you still wanna 8 abt MY stuff?why don't you just go fuck yourself??omg.Can't tahan people like you.Once again,this is MY stuff,MY business,MY own things.You don't have to give any fuckin cares,okay?thank you very much:)

gtg.byeeeee=)

♥expectation.

2010-04-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

Had discussed some planning with her.And she agreed if i wanna continue.Psychology is my choice IF i can get through everything.*closed.I would like to thanks him once again for coming back to accompany me.Lol 2 more papers to go and 1 week for the break=p mom said:''You so free?nothing to do?got 2 weeks break but you itchy go be kepo abt peoples' stuff.'' after i think,yea also.Haha.but with a positive minded,i can gain some experiences by joining this(",) Aww.I watched a video just now.its abt photoshoot for the wedding=p how sweet.and a thought of you came into my mind:) wondering whether we could be like them?Lol hopefully.Hehe..
HIM.like normal.No words at all..is ok=)
last night.talked alot.she said:'' hey,if we don't like a person,no matter how,what they do,we'll don't like." haha..yea yea..i agreed! Just like her,her,her,and her.hahahaha=p
sometime people just couldn't understand that the hurts they gave may leave a scar.After we gave them a full heart,yea see,they'll act like nothing and easily ask us to give up.wtf?you think so easy ah??at least need to wait for a few years la.the word 'give up' is so easy to say,but not easy to do.Even if we give up,the feel of guilty,down,pain will still exist.*no matter in which way of giving up=p
gotta go! byeee.

used to be.

2010-04-11T18:19:00.003+08:00

when i was young,i asked my parents before,why after a daddy and mommy sleep together,then the next day sure have a baby come out?and they was like.giggle and not really remember what they answer me.Lol hmm.when i was young,i used to stay with my grandmom.well you know her hse was like abit kampung and what's on my mind right now,is the games i used to play with my cousins.Hehe.I remember that,i saw a cat,alright,then i ran inside the hse,took the colour pencil and draw a fish,then cut it into a fish shape:) i gave it to the cat and wonder why the cat not come near me??I used to play hide and seek in the garden with them.I used to 'help' grandmom in the kitchen.I used to play the water bubbles with the cousin.I used to watch cartoon with them,fighting for the cartoon character.Haha..i'm pooh,the teletubies i mean.She's lala,he's depsy,and she's tinkiwinki:) haha.. Aww.I suddenly recall the memories.
How good if i still have the chance to go back to the times.I miss it:) Hmm.the small little chicks following their moms to find food.yellowish.small size.cute!seriously.Followed the aunt to plug the mangoes,rambutans and chikus.Oh,and the times i had masak masak with them! haha.and the times we play with the barbies:)
As we grow older,everything seems to fade.Everything changed.And we tent to forget the nice and bad moments we had spent together.Life.hmm?changes.Sometime i afraid of changes.Either the feelings,relationships,attitudes,everything may change.Yea,that's the truth.

truth.

2010-04-10T13:27:00.002+08:00

一个人，不管怎么坚强，遇到爱情总会脆弱。

the experince.

2010-04-10T12:26:00.005+08:00

Last night,yea,last night.Can be said that last night really a good great night :) spent my night with darling,styler,wai keong,ling shiao,sue zhen and sam:) at barroom,the actual planning,but had changed to zero degree.hmm..its fun,but not until a group of CBs datang kacau>.<>
*sorry darling,i've shouted at you.haha* yes yes,we went there by styler's car and she was worried that she'll bump into his dad.kakaka..great night:) at least we can relax our mind before the final.huhu:)
the only thing i hate is when the urine test.Like we take drug huh?and they were so curious which one is me??one by one call my name to see me.wtf.thanks god we're free and continue with our party.haha..then,
_________________________closed__________________________

hehe:) Reached kampar around 4am?or 5am? i just remember that i went toilet for several time and vomit.Darling sleep so tight til forgot my name.haha:)
anyway,i hope last night gave her the strength to move on:) cheer up^^
lastly,Happy great birthday to my dear lau wing ann:) muacks!

After some times:)

2010-04-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Never update any for few days,since the line treat me so nice.hmm..anyway,i'm shifting this month.yeah^^
I wonder why some people just don't know how to appreciate the special precious thing that given to them.For now,i can see through her eyes that she really in pain.I don't know why i care for her so much.She's in pain,i knew it,me as well.I worry if i do not have the ability to comfort her,but yet,i hope that i manage to give her the concerns that she needs:) everything gonna be okay,please lord:)
As for him,like normal.Will face some ridiculous arguments.Haha.
Well,i hope he is my last,and the only one:) had plan for the future and may god guide us:)
hmm..no mood to blog le.next time.byee=p

♥ sincere huggies

2010-04-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

When a girl is crying in pain and feel so lost,suddenly a boy comes to give her a warm hug and comfort,that's the most sincere hug.
listen to me,
Is the most sincere sincere sincere and sincere:)
and now,Let me tell you,
just now,my the only one gave me the most sincere hug,the feeling is so nice that i ever had. thank you.♥

Thank you♥

2010-03-28T17:04:00.002+08:00

Darling♥
This is for you.
I just wanna thanks you for taking care of me:)
And so sorry about just now,gave you trouble and make you angry till heart pain:(
Thanks for worry about me♥ Thanks for your concern and care:)
Love you♥
If it wasn't because of me,today you'll have a peace and relax day.
so i wasn't angry or sad when you scolded me just now.Lol so,you don't have to feel any guilty yea.
It's my responsibility,but yet i gave you so much trouble:(
sorry^^
I was forcing myself to stay strong and keep walking,don't fall sick.And thanks to GOD that nothing happen to me,if so,surely you'll be fed up.hees♥
I'm so troublesome right?so weak.hmm..but trust me,i already tried so hard but then the energy is not enough for me.
Feel so guilty.Hmm..seeing you so pain,so suffer,make my tears to roll down.Are you okay?feeling better?:( i'm worry about you too.
Thank you♥ Really thank you darling♥ thanks so much♥
and i promise not to give you so much trouble anymore.I'll take good care of myself^^

Biarkan^^

2010-03-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

Dapat online kerana aku di rumah darlingku.Esok i'm going to shout at them again! ergghhh!!
Minggu yang sibuk.EP and Psycho assignments,presentation lagi,mid-term lagi.dying:( hey,tadi aku checked facebook,ada orang jealous yet tak mengaku.Lol
Aku sudah berbaik dengan darlingku.Semalam pergi parade dengannya.Bersama kawan rapatku,styler dan ah bi dia^^ betapa gembira.
hari ni dia tidak perlu jadi kuli,so bagus.Tapi dia kept asking me go see her presentation.Sorry la,aku sudah habis kelas.Haha.
sigh.sekejap hujan,sekejap panas.hmm.itu lah kampar.
tak balik minggu ni,minggu depan lah.GW.
See you lemaks.Haha..kla..gonna bath,then finish the women's weekly.baru dapat mimpi yang indah.
Lol

Turning:)

2010-03-25T13:46:00.002+08:00

Geramnya.Line masih teruk walaupun aku sudah complain buat kali kelima!
hmm.Partner GF ku ialah kelvin lai:) bagus sekali^^
Sebenarnya,diriku masih marah akan that asshole.adakah patut dia rasa yang aku tidak patut say that to her,did she know that i simply don't know about that?and not i'm the one who start it first?Bodoh sekali.hey,lain kali make sure dulu baru cakap,jangan fitnah orang lah.
aduhai.Kesalahan orang lain you boleh nampak,kesalahan you sendiri you boleh nampak ke?and that's no use to throw me advices to stop dislike her.because aku bukan mask rider.Lol i'm not that kind of people wearing mask,dislike but still giving a fake smile.Aku bukan!C'mon,if you don't done anything wrong,aku tak akan begitu geram akan kamu lah.And the other YOU,sedar tak yang you memang tak kenang jasa.Siapa yang banyak tolong kamu dulu?Siapa yang comfort you bila you down?Siapa yang hulurkan bantuan ketika you perlukan?and now,what did you give back to me?betapa gembiranya you bersama dia.Yala,same species mah^^ kan?
You jangan ingat aku akan sedih or takut untuk kehilangan kamu,kerana to me,you're nothing.But,one thing,i wanna tell you,for the last time,she's not your slave,and you're not her master:) alright?
berlapis-lapis muka kamu ada,sungguh banyak kepala dan lidahmu.And batu api juga.You manusia atau binatang?
sebelum you kata orang lain,sila cerminkan dirimu dulu ok?jangan ingat you sungguh cerdik.You tidak.
haiz.cukuplah.malas nak layan this kind of people.nanti ada orang tak syok pula.yala,siapa yang makan cili,tentulah dia yang akan rasa pedasnya.Hahahaha..
keke^^
Darling asked me,why i blog in bm.haha..hmm..just wanna change selera lo:) all in english,kadang-kala sure wanna change lo^^ right?
itu orang memang sudah mencapai tahap critical,tidak boleh diubati.Lol aduhai,apa nak jadi dengan dunia sekarang?semakin banyak jenis orang yang weird weird.Hmm.asalkan mereka tidak kacau ku sudah^^ hehe:)

* miss you:) get well soon^^*

Hey YOU,fuck off !

2010-03-19T14:00:00.004+08:00

Hey you.Fuck off okay ! :) Hmm.I'm wondering,why the things happening in life is so so so unfair?? Why does those people so blind till couldn't realize her real look and attitude? Walao. And and and..the funny part is when she showing off to others as the success that she had is she achieve with hard work. HEY YOU,do you understand what i'm trying to say?? You took away our friend.Now the friend become victim! You're just like a killer.
Hey you.Fuck off la! Don't appear in front of me anymore! your face is so so annoying and gross.Huh?why?its a fact ok?Don't think that you have a long hair and slim is consider you as ms pretty ya.*vomit* and and,is not jealous case here okay? there is nothing to jealous about you.You're just rubbish la..
Hey you.Stop showing off okay?stop hurting my friends okay?stop fa qiao okay?stop treat my friend as your driver okay?stop doing all the nonsense things okay?
and and and..do you realize that everyone is talking about you now?Do you know that actually??yes,is quite pitiful.And i do feel bad.hmm..But,sorry,it serve you right:) so,fuck off!!! and don't show us your fuck face.Lol

Memories:)

2010-03-15T21:34:00.003+08:00

Finally,we went to the zoo already:) Lol With my lovely classmate-styler and her ah bi:) haha..wai keong,cui cui,lee mee,kitty,ling shiao,sue zhen,sam and darling.It was really really tiring and it took about 3 hours to reach.and we keep sesat jalan.Lol Woke up at 7am and i gave them all a msg and even miss calls.Omg.planed to start car at 8am sharp but end up,9am,after ghany.

waited for sue zhen and sam at ipoh mcd.I almost slipped down in the toilet.*thanks cui cui for saving me* haha..after lunch at taiping,then only visit the zoo:) Omg.The ticket cost us rm12,but i checked internet,only rm5.Wtf??But nevermind.It's really fun to be with them:D

Here it start.The first styler's friend we visit is the Iguana.walao.so huge!a damn huge lizard! then the leopard cat,and it even got babies:)how cute.Oh,the pics..going to upload it soon:)Well.since the Danish management not doing their job! Blog also have to blog half way then continue when there is a connection available.No wonder one by one move out from here! Really,seriously,i'm not really that rough and didn't mean to be so rude.But,you know,i need,nope.WE need to access to the internet.ok?The complain had been made for several times.But see..really fuck.
hmm.fine.talk abt the zoo 1st.Lol Took some SH pics with them and we really had a wonderful moment:) Orang Utan,elephants,tigers,lions,crocodiles,camels,snakes,monkeys..hmm..what else??a lot la.and and and..hippopotamus! hahaha..damn huge.
Miss the times:) really had so much fun with them.But too bad,we got to end it since the heavy rain:( went jusco to have some makan then drive to kampar.
Damn tired and i was fallen asleep in the car too:) but really worth it:) had a very great time with them and darling:) miss yea:)

Not being.

2010-03-14T14:55:00.003+08:00

Hmm.I'm no longer crazy on blogging,like how i used to be.Lol Is not that nothing to update,is just.hmm.a bit lazy,and to prevent myself to fuck the danish management.The line,omg i tell you,really damn slow.Just imagine,i have to wait for like 15 mins just to log in to my facebook.Just log in okay?Fine.

Recently.A few of weird people appear in front of me.And i was like,fuck off u guys!Lol and some of them really make me vomit whenever see their faces.*how bad.See,i've told you that i'm not that kind* haha.but seriously,they really annoying.I wonder why people can still tahan them.And were so blind to choose them as their VIP.Well.I'm not hypocrite.What i don't like,is forever X in my heart.No reason for me to pretend that i'm good with them.No time for that.So.

Excited for tomorrow's plan:) and it is only for the gang whom everyone of us happy with:)

Darling busy with his SWC stuff.and he was really really stress.Damn la.how can the difficult one given to him handle it all?He alone.C'mon.where is your brain huh??Bully my darling.hmmp!Stay strong anyway darling.Muacks!

well.I'm going to off.some stuff is waiting for me:) take care:)

where are you?

2010-03-10T00:50:00.004+08:00

Where are you?Why i couldn't reach you?Why i couldn't feel you?Where were you when i need your comfort?your hug?your smile?your care?I miss you.

It make me more sadder when i think of you,sister.I miss you so badly.I miss to hear your jokes.I miss to touch your fatty lemak.haha.I miss to take self-loving photos together.I miss to act naughty with you.I miss to quarrel with you,fighting for damn small little thing.I miss to hear your shouts.I miss everything that you do to make me laugh!I'll go back soon:) hehe.

I desperately need someone with me now.But i don't want sohai one.kaka! But nice after talked with kitty last night.until..urm.around 3 in the morning Lol but at least can make me feel better.

I feel i'm totally lost.I don't know what to do and it is all.blur..I'm so down but yet i got no way to release it out! who can help me?I seriously need someone to talk to,that can give me smile,support,comfort and care.Anyone.I'll accept:)

I miss them! my family.Really miss them.How i wish i could fly back to ipoh right now.

I love all of you.Can i get the love from all of you too?No need to return so much as how i'm giving,just a little care,that's more than enough.Thank you.I appreciate it much.

P.s Sis,text me when you read it yea.Love you than everything:) Take care:)

No One.

2010-03-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

Why me?and why did you said that to me?I was hurt.because i love you,i never think to hurt you,or up set you.And in this situation,i can't find anywhere to go.I still need you.I still need the support from you.But how can i get it all without communicate with you?What did ive done actually?that make you totally mad of me?Where is my fault?how can you punish me without telling me a strong reason?I know,''try to ask him,try to communicate with him,go back,talk nicely to him,give him a hug..bla bla bla'' yes,these all crap words they gave to me whenever i talk and share with them.Is really such an easy thing to say,but can or cannot do it,only i can know.So,i really feel lost and feel no one could understand me.Because only me face the problem.Yea,,i know others may face much more tough problem which more serious than me.

sighh..only to blog i can release everything out.But now my laptop get virus and need to format.

again.i feel so lost because i really don't know anything about it.and i couldn't consult him also.

argggghhhh..my god! i feel like dying!

i love you both.yes..both him:) To you,i never think to kick you aside.i really love you and i need you.To another him,i love you.You're the one i always think of and i really sorry to hurt everytime.Sorry.

Tears

2010-03-04T19:18:00.005+08:00

What did i've done?Where is my fault?Can you please tell me.Maybe i'm too blind to see the wrong thing i've done.Maybe i'm too stupid to think of my fault.Maybe i'm too deaf to hear what you're actually telling me.Maybe i'm too dumb to get what you mean.Maybe i'm too useless to read your mind.Maybe i'm too stubborn to change to what you want.Izit??
Why every time have to end up like this?I was too tired to think of the reason why you become like this.I totally no idea.And when i asked you,you said nothing.I'm not a doll.For you to kick away.For you to play.I can't stand if you be so emotional.I'm actually not that really soft.really kind to stay calm every time.I do have my ego and feeling.I did felt suffer if every time like this and end up with tears dropping.Why??what happened?You emo,i don't know what else i can do.I don't know what else can be said.You're so funny.Can emo without reason.But the people surround you would really worry about you,do you know that?Esp me.I really really damn worry about you.I asked.I tried to talk to you.But what did i get??When i talk to you,do you have look at me?answer me?respect me??I just want to know the reason.I willing to listen to all your problem.Why did you hide it from me??
haiz.You make myself feel that i'm totally useless.Can't even give you comfort and be like how you wish.SORRY.Really sorry.
Leave me alone.And you need time to think as well.
You asked me before that do i understand you.But now i hope to get the answer from you,Do you understand me?????
hmm.but one thing so funny here is.If the old me.I already give up in such situation.hees.But this time not at all.I never wanna give up.I stay strong and try to find the solution instead of give up.hmm.Maybe because of i really love him so much.hmm.And i hope he'll know about it:)

Fuck danish!

2010-03-02T01:57:00.001+08:00

Really so damn fuck the danish hse!!!!
the line so cacat! always disconnect.
the hse rosak here and there.
wanna move out from here!!!
pay for what oh??????
huhh!
tomorrow im going to complain again!
for don't know how many time already!
hmmp!!!!!!
no mood right now.
really fuck!

Back again:)

2010-02-26T19:56:00.002+08:00

Huhuu..so long never update my blog.hmm.quite busy lately and abit lazy too:)Lol
well,new sem started and both of my lecturer is male:) hehe.Mr Chong is so kind:) Like,seriously kind:)good^^ but my psycho lecturer...hmm..really psycho.hahaha..
hmm.went jusco last night with styler and her lao gong,mine,and lee mee:)Watched ''Percy jackson".Great show.We had a fun time together and we really enjoyed it even though we're tired after classes:) and.I'm getting married! Lee mee promise to design a wedding dress for me and styler and davide will perform in the wedding party.Lol hahahahaaa..
and and and.we going to taiping zoo soon! so excited:) haha!
Sigh.I'm dealing with some conflict right now:( with myself and him.Hmm.I always asking for too much.always feel that the love has fade.always not thankful for whatever i have.Hmm.I realize it now and i feel so wrong to have that kind of thinking before.He always there for me,but why i still doubting?He always love me,but why i just don't believe him?
hmm.Just fine.So now,I'll cherish everything that is mine:) and i won't take everything for granted:)

we need it more♥

2010-02-15T19:10:00.006+08:00

"LOVE" is a strange feeling but it could be the one most amazing in our lives:)Sometimes the emotions associated with love are blissful,but there are times when they can really hurtful.Lol ''Love'' is something that all of us can encounter but there are may different ways to define the ''love''.Agree people?hees:)
Hmm..but of cause we have to learn to love ourselves first before we love others:) Yes.when you say "i love you" to someone,you really have to mean it with all your heart and willing to do anything for the someone:)and for sure have to apply the love unconditionally and would not expect anything in return.Meaning that we can't expect the partner will give us the same like how we gave to them.Yes,it can be hurtful,and we'll think that the partner doesn't appreciate the love that we gave.but,if we think again,maybe the way they show their love to us is different from us.So,try to love just for the sake of love,not anything else in return.haha..*it's hard actually* haha!well,but im facing it too.lol so i really understand that kind of feeling^^ just stay strong.
Hmm.and i wonder why those people just don't appreciate the love that given by others.Ya,maybe when they realize that they gonna lose it,then only they start to appreciate it:)hmm..that's human.And i never deny that in a love life,sometime it may be unfair.Sometimes,we'll found that,when we love a person so much,but the person doesn't appreciate the love at all.aww..it's hurtful right?hmm.but sometimes,when we do not have any feeling toward a person,but yet the person will treat you damn nice and willing to do everything just to see you smile.hmm.Why it so unfair?especially to those who really need the love,why they couldn't get it?is their own matter or others just try to neglect them?0.o hmm.actually,it's all need experiences,once you get through it before,maybe you'll understand it more:)
love! is a simple thing,but yet can be so complicated and gonna leave a wound if once they get hurt by someone.trust me?and the wound not easy to be cure,in fact,some that can never be cure.So,it turns to scar..Terrible right?hmm.That's so funny.
Love is blind.we willing to do anything just to make them happy even to hurt ourselves.Is that call stupid?haha..

Is that alright?

2010-02-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hmm..listen people,is it alright for you to love person A but at the same time you like person B?hmm.It was nothing actually.just,wondering.Hmm.does anyone got the answer?pls tell me:) *thanks*and close the topic! i was totally sick thinking about that,esp anything concerning about HER.
hmm.Today was tiring.and the weather hot like.** .whatever.^^ and i feel that this year cny celebration doesn't hot and fun like the previous years.and sad to share that,*today,i just got rm17.haha..if compare to previous years,for the first day of cny,my pocket full with angpows.Lol
But it doesn't important.the most important is the laughter,happiness,gathering with the beloved family:) right?^^ hmm.Today is valentine's day too.And we was like..ooh ooh..same with the first day of cny o.o miss him badly:(
hmm.wo hen fan!!! walao.my brain gonna burst soon! again ya,is it alright for a person to love person A but at the same time like person B??will the feeling of 'like' turn to 'love'?hmm.we don't know.Anyway,gong xi fa cai to all readers and my beloved friends:)

Met him

2010-02-13T16:18:00.005+08:00

*This post should be posted last,urm..friday.and i thought i posted it but actually it is still in my draft.Lol*
Yesterday(thursday),met him for the first time.I mean,since we both break up:)hmm.quite far away but we he still come forward said hi to me:) Lol wow,it was long lost between me and him and i was so surprise that met him there.exchanged contact number and he texted me right after i reached home."Hello,nice to meet you just now.and you are getting more prettier.Still remember your sweet smile just now.I guess that's the reason why your bf love you much" "Lol.Nope,still the same la.Thanks anyway.Yes,he love me so much and treat me very well:) and i love him more than word can say too!"
"oh" he replied me.haha..anyway.that is all over between me and him:) now,my life started with HIM.and i'll loyal to his love.hehes.Hmm.
My sis emo today.haha..but still cute.i found that i love to tease her,lately.and her response is " ooooooooiiiiiii...don't disturb!" or ''Mama..you see sister,she disturb me!!" or ''weiya!you better stop it or else i'll bla bla bla" hahaha.
so now,i know the reason why they love to tease me.because tease ppl really fun! haha!!
hmm.one week more to rest then start with stressful life.and can't wait them! esp him^^

laughing mode:)

2010-02-13T01:10:00.007+08:00

Laughing is a sign of happy,cheerful,good health,positive mind,full of confidence..:)^^
keep laughing,the beauty will remain:)
so,laugh-out now!! hahahahahaahahahaahahaha..even though ppl might thinks that you're crazy.Lol

HC.

2010-02-10T19:14:00.003+08:00

Yes,today received the 1st text from him.I feel better,much..especially after talked to qi xiang and mimi:)*is okay jie,i understand that you're busy* lol hmm.yea,is true what you said,i should think positively and soon the hurt will fade away,after some times:)*thanks bro:)
hmm.feel closer to him today.texting since morning?afternoon?whatever.hmm.and talked on the phone for about..an hour?hmm.text again till the time to say good night^^ is good if i can think positively right?hehes.but its all takes time for healing which i have to face it alone.i wish that i can do as how i've decided.hmm,still waiting for the words from jie.^^I was exhausted.Too concern about others but hurting ownself.Sorry to the aunt which i really couldn't help anything for her.If i just think about her benefits,how about mine?I'm not going to become an idiot to let her step on.hmm.Tired! sick of thinking all these matters.S.O.S!!!
*close this topic*
Hmm.i wasn't have time to give some feedback about the forum i attended last,urm,saturday.I was not in the mood lol.haha..but as i promised,i'll post about the beneficial values with others.G.W:)Hmm..what else?urm..yea.my back and shoulders.Omg,it was killing me.I don't feel comfort and totally tired.in pain.hmm.the yoko yoko seems not effective.lol my mouth,full with ulser..why ya?i eat something wrong??hmm.
yes.is counting down to get angpows now:) haha.The empty pocket waiting to fill up full! kaka!
cheer up liyana:) Stay strong.Love her darling^^
and

Need! the strength!

2010-02-09T23:07:00.004+08:00

Since i've decided to set that kind of thinking,why i still feel so hurt?why i still no mood for the whole day?omg.this,i could never get the answer.i told him about it,and he was totally happy,and i was like,hmm.okay..and my heart was totally.pain.can say that.hmm.is okay.as long as he happy.right?haha..hmm.i should call mimi and get some useful words from her.and i'm sure i'll feel much better after talk to her:)
God,please make me strong.it is just a simple little thing that i need to do.so please walk with me and give me the strength.sigh..what is wrong to me?why so hard for me to handle this kind of feeling?who can help me?*SOS* haha.it is just simple thing but i can take it serious and i was so down! hmm.the only thing i know now is,he was happy.and i suppose to feel alright about it.right?:) hmm.i choose to hurt myself instead to hurt him and,is okay to do that.if not,i will feel the pain and hurt he give to me,which i don't want to get.is alright if i hurt my own feeling.hmm..nah..is not that i'm kind or nice or whatever.Is actually,i feel so tired.like,seriously tired.that kind of feel.hmm..i'm tired to fight.tired to argue.tired to hate*but doesn't mean i'll accept her ok* hmm.
fine.since i've decided,i'll make it true.god bless me:)
is okay for me to crying alone.handle the hurts and pains.Omg.but yet,i feel life doesn't suck so much:) let's cheers:) ! Liyana,try your very best.

seriously tired:(

2010-02-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

I was tired.seriously tired.hmm.why i always being so kind to people but at the end just let them step on?i always care about others,but who going to care about me?so i decided,not to care much.because the thing we keep hoping not to fall onto us,will still happen,eventually.well,sometime the life is so unfair,right?yeah..i might be a bad for him if i care too much of thing that he likes to do.and i can't even control the mind of his thinking.i don't have the power.so,i'll let him do whatever thing that he enjoy and i shouldn't care too much.i trust him and i too tired to say no to this and that,because it is all useless.:) hmm.
just cheer my life and please,make me fulfill this will:) make me strong,God.please love and bless me:)
i love you so much and this is why i wanna to see you happy:)

seriously:)

2010-02-04T19:29:00.003+08:00

It's almost end of this week.The event coming soon.this saturday,and i was totally excited.is not that.because of that event.urm..yes laa.but more to end this week.Lol
Hey people,actually i did find a job to spend my times.but couldn't find any.so i was like.Okay..fine.better help mom.and i get rm10 everyday from her.^^hmm.so.that's it.fuckin boring hols.Last night,the best buddy asked me to go back kampar for few days.and asked me to back with lao gong.well.she going back to see her lao gong too:)but too sad.i can't make it:(
hmm.miss lao gong so much.2 weeks plus to go.Lol he texted me first today. haha . as i said last night.i won't text you first.haha.guai^^
hmm..received one of his text.said that he thinks that he is not good enough for me.always makes me cry,hurt and worry.hmm.i was.speechless actually.cuz i never think that he is.
but seriously,he was good for me and everything for me.and how i wish to tell him that i really love him with all my heart.God should know.
*close topic* haha.
The crazy sister acted naughtly just now.i was helping mom to wash the dishes and she was standing beside me and tickle my stomach.and i was totally fed up.wish to wet her up.but.i did not* lol but in all the suddden.she emo me.hmm..she was angry cuz i don't keep the bones for 'teh' Lol =='' raining la adikku yang tersayang.*
fine.
Received the msg from him.omg! i was like..scare to answer him.like seriously scare and the heart beating was so fast.haiz.wondering how the hell he'll know about it and why he ask me??
hmm..thank you anyway.haha:)
so.that's all for now.Aku rindu lao gongku.haha.and.according to styler chai,only 3 of u smart.haha.You,she,and her lao gong.not included me:( hmm.izit?haha.
F her la.Lol hope to see you soon ya! muackss.

Remembered.

2010-02-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

Hmm.something pissed me off right now.
when i on the facebook just now.
i click on my previous best friend`s profile.
hmm.
it made me remind of her and the times we spent together last time.
now,i put all the blame on them.
i dare to write their name out-suzanne lee,kan poh leng and shiqin.
because of them.my friendship with her ruin.
hmm.
nothing gonna change anything now.
just stand up and move forward.
i wish her all the best and stay happy with the mates that she`ve found.
god bless(:

B.

2010-02-02T23:18:00.003+08:00

It was the fourth day of my holiday.i mean.in ipoh.
quite boring.everyday just doing the same activities.
wake up at 9-10am.
helping mom around.
wait for sister back from school.
shopping.lepak lepak.jogs.online.
hmm....
that's all!
miss darling so much!
and all the buddies.
went to the store after taken my dinner.
*i cooked on my own which i'll tell later.* Lol
sister wanted to purchase the Oreef bag pack.
it's damn nice.-according to her.and it was so so so cheap.
what a funny thing here.
actually the condition of purchasing the bag with only rm29.90,
is..to buy other stuff and over rm100. Lol
then she was like,DAMN disapointed.hmm.
i'm buying the jeans.but it is a discount item.which is not available to the condition.
hmm.after 5 mins The Store going to close and end up.
buy nothing.haha.
We both like,OMG..we tried so hard to persuade mom to drive us.
but at the end got nothing.haha.
Is okay^^ save up money so that could purchase more.
Lol
yea..about the own cooked dinner.
I cooked.not to say really 'cook'.i mean,just boiled.haha.
the couliflower.and fried the taufu.and pour some soy sauce.
only that for my dinner.can make me full actually.
You know??the whole flower of the couli.
and 2 toufu.^^
hees.
hmm.darling didn't reply my text=(
wondering what is he doing?
sleeping??hmm.
wish to stay beside him right now.
hold his hand and give him the supports that he needs.
sighhhhh....
miss him much=(

after exam:)

2010-01-31T17:06:00.011+08:00

This is what we did after the final^^ fun=)we went for steamboat in ipoh and meet up with suezhen and sam for drink drink at..somewhere^^ hees=) happy moment but sad too.hmm..cuz our kenny is leaving us that night.hmm.

all the girls=)oppss..where is kitty??Lol

darling,kenny and kitty so so busy=) yummy=)

crazy gang^^ davide,styler,lee mee,burger and cui cui=)

wahahaha..me and styler=)

on saturday night,styler,davide,darling and me went for a movie=) nice show=) - wu hu=) haha..later on,went voodoo^^ Reach kampar quite late.had some chat for awhile.and bye bye..see you guys on next sem.
sob.i'm gonna miss them so much!

A to Z from someone:)

2010-01-29T17:40:00.004+08:00

Q and A:)
A-Available?: not available.
B-birthday on?: 28th of july.
C-crushing on?: it's a secret =x
D-Drunk before?: Yes,few times:)
E-easiest person to talk to? : urm.darling^^
F-favorite song?: err.latest,russian roulette by rihanna:)
G-gummy bears or gummy worms? : Bears!
H-had sex before?: what kind of question is this huh?
I-in love with?: Darling^^
J-jusco or parade u prefer? : jusco:)
K-killed someone before? : nope.killing myself :x
L-longest car ride?: urm..4-5 hours i thk.
M-missing someone right now?: yes.
N-number of sibling?: 3
O-one wish.: make me pass my exam please^^
P-person that you wish to kill?: M L
Q-quiet or noisy are you?: Haha..talkative..is quiet or noisy? Lol
R-reason to smile?: Be with them!
S-sick of?: M L!!!!!!!
T-thing that you never ever touch?: drug.
U-underwear brand and colour: C.K. blue in colour.^^
V-vegetable(s): err...depends.
W-wish to do right now : Kill that bitch!
X-x-ray u did before?: nope.
Y-Yellow are the symbol of?: ?? sex? haha.
Z-zany you are?: my friend said i am:)
haha..can i add on? for H-hate? M L,fakers and destroyers. W-wishes: wish that he'll listen to me^^and forever with me^^

Forgotten:(

2010-01-29T01:22:00.001+08:00

Sad after he told me that he forgotten the first day we get to know each other:(
but he still remember that 'she' being so nice to him.
on the same day.
what..i'm nice to you on that day too!
i still remember the topics that we chat about.
the funny thing we laughed together.
but did you?
hmm.
maybe i'm not attractive enough that can make him remember.
just fine:(
'she' just seems perfect in your eyes.
haiz.
make me hate her more right now!
=(

Changes:)

2010-01-28T17:29:00.004+08:00

Before and after:)
hehe.
Before i'm with him,
i was free to enjoy every plans with buddies.
but now,of cause i have to mind him alot!:) and get his permission.
Lol
Before i'm with him,
i do things alone.
but now everything seems to divide into two:)
Before i'm with him,
i only mind my own business.
but now i have to care and mind his too:)
Before i'm with him,
my time spend more with buddies.
but now i have to put more attention to him:)
Before i'm with him,
i can just see styler and davide holding hand.
but now i can even hug him.=)
Before i'm with him,
i take care of myself.
but now i have to take care of him as well:)
Before i'm with him,
my mind is free.
but now every second every minute of the day my mind busy thinking of him.
Before i'm with him,
i buy thing only for me.
but now i buy for him as well.
Before i'm with him,
i sleep on the whole bed,
but now have to share half with him:)
Before i'm with him,
i don't really share thing with people.
but now there are no secret between us two.
Before i'm with him,
i was jealous of other couples.
but now others jealous of me and him:)
lol
Before i'm with him,
i don't like black and white.
but now i love it because he love it:)
Before i'm with him,
i don't mind what others think of me.
but now i mind what he think of me because i just want to be perfect in his heart:)
Before i'm with him,
i scare to walk alone in the dark,
but now i don't have to feel so because he holding my hand all the way:)
Before i'm with him.
my blog post is just about myself.
but now most of the post is about me and him:)
Before i'm with him,
my days doesn't as cheerful as now.
but now my days really cheerful and fun!
Before i'm with him,
i don't really appreciate the times,
but now every second is just like a gold that gonna waste if not to be spend together.
Before i'm with him,
i'm got my own freedom.
but now no more:) *it's good actually*
hmm.
changes fall on me after i'm with him.
and i really appreciate it:)
Yesterday darling said something that.surprising me.quite.
hahaa.
darling: hey,just now in the exam hall,i see all the girls around me.i wonder why i'll choose you instead of them.hmm.then its remind me to what you've done toward me.your kindness and your effort,especially on my birthday that time.i really really really appreciate you:)
me: =) your birthday?what did i've done?
darling: urm..everything.=)
me: ohh..hehe..how sweet:)
darling: But only that moment laa..hahaha.
me:== aiyer,only that moment you feel that you appreciate me?you so bad.=(
darling and me: hahahahaahahaha.....

A kind of sick

2010-01-28T15:06:00.002+08:00

A kind of sick.
yes,that kind.
really suck.
like hell.
No,i'm not really down just because of that matter.
but just,disappointed.maybe.
hmm.
Just a little mistake,the goodness and fun memories just fade away.
yea,sometime we tend to forget how to appreciate others.
even if the people appreciate you like.so so much.damn much!
just a little mistake that the people done,
tend to be a serious case to us.
put the blame all around.
never try to find the solution.
since the mind of thinking of theirs are totally different with smart people.
Lol
Where are their brain huh?
always think of silly silly thing.
never grow up.
my god.
please ohh..
But i know the problem is not from me.
because i get full support and love from them here:)
damn much!
what's the problem of theirs actually??
funny.
what is done is done,anyway.
there is no button to click to the past,
even if there are any,
stop hoping that i'll click it on.
Lol
my day now not with fake happiness.
i tell you first,
is really really fuckin happy and cheers!!!
so now,damn all of you! my previous so-call best friend.
vomiting*
thanks for get lost from my life.
i'm not regret for any.
seriously.
Just feel myself so dumb for care and love you all so much.
and being so kind to let you all step on to.